"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, Who is in you, Whom you have received from God? ... So use every part of your body to give glory back to God..." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Friday, October 12, 2012

She kissed me on the cheek.

Everyone had left the house and alone I stood washing the glasses out. My hands felt numb and my motions were motionless. The tears streamed down my cheeks and my body shook in grief. "Why God, she was such a good girl." I cried. I just wanted to crawl inside myself. I wanted to hide away. I lost a peice of me today and I will never be the same. I never had daughters. I always wanted one more. But God gave me beautiful nieces. I cried harder thinking of my beautiful niece. "God, No, No No...I cried."

I felt someone walk up behind me. It was Austin. I didn't know he was behind me. Taller than me at 13 he gently wrapped his arms around me from behind and put his head in my hair. He held me tight crying softly with me. I didn't want him to see me this way. My eyes were swollen and I could hardly breath but like a gentle giant he held his mother up.

We sat on the couch together with a blanket holding us together. Holding my hand Austin began sobbing.
She Loved her Uncle Andy.
 "Mom, Ariel would put me down for a nap and always kiss me on the cheek."  He wept. He shared his memories and laid his head on my shoulder. Together we cried.
We always dressed alike. Silly

Ariel Rose. 21. BEAUTIFUL. Inside and Out. A Dreamer. A Achiever. A Fighter.
She was the little girl I never had.
I lost a piece of me today. And I will never be the same.
I would dream  her dreams with her. 
I  felt her accomplishments, her achievements, her victories.
We cried together, laughed together, went on hikes through the woods, shopping trips and lunch dates.

I lost a piece of me today and I will never be the same.
I can see her so close but I can not touch her...I just want to feel your hair in my fingers. I want to hear your soft voice in my ears...Just look at me with the big brown eyes one more time...
Can I just tell you how proud I am of you one more time???
Can I tell you I love you so much..so so much ???
I will take anything, a giggle, a whisper, a touch, a wink....

I lost a piece of me today and I will never be the same.
I have reread your messages a dozen times.
I have listened to your voice on my phone and pretended you were near me..
But your not....I can see you but your not there.
Ariel Wisdom

Ariel, You were that girl who made a difference. You made a difference in your Strength and in your Faith.
You were Courageous and fought all of Hell. 
Ariel, me and Sarah
You trusted on God to carry you. You sought God for Strength and Wisdom. I have had the pleasure of watching God turn you into his masterpiece.
I am so thankful for the little time I had you. For every second, every minute, every smile, eye roll, hair cut, dream, heartache, photograph, for everything everything you gave me. I just want more. I want you.

Glenns Wedding,  Isn't she Simply Beautiful,  

What I would give to kiss her on the cheek.

Heartbroken, Anita


  1. Still can't believe this. I am so sorry for your family and your loss. I played basketball with Ariel for years. She was my best friend at Pierce and I'm still at aw that this happened. She was a wonderful person and a wonderful friend.

    1. Thank you Connor, She was a wonderful person. ANd I am so glad she was a wonderful friend.

      Lewis E. Wint & Son Funeral Home, Clarkston Tuesday from 3-9 pm; Funeral Service Wednesday10:00 am at The River Church, Holly. Interment Lakeview Cemetery, Clarkston.

      If you would like to come.

  2. Anita, So sorry for such a precious loss. Lifting you in prayer during your time of grief.