"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, Who is in you, Whom you have received from God? ... So use every part of your body to give glory back to God..." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Thursday, February 4, 2016

When your just "Not Feeling it"

Some days you just don't feel it.

I remember a conversation with a runner, a distance runner, who said they went out for a run and after a mile came home. He said "I just wasn't feeling it."
"1 mile?!" I thought. That seemed crazy. I would burn more energy getting ready to run and if I took that much time then I would just HAVE TO RUN.
Now, that being said, I wouldn't turn around after a mile, I just wouldn't start!

That is pretty much how I felt this morning. I wasn't feeling it.

I woke up in my sons bedroom, on his spare bed. Andy came to bed late, woke me up, then tried to use my back as a Ipad desk to read on. I was trying to not go Latino. I calmly got up and went to bed with Alec.
I slept pretty good, I just wasn't feeling it, the RUN.
I was feeling a lot this morning.
And that was probably the problem. When you have all these emotions but cant find a word for them, a compartment for them, a reason for them..Yep, Welcome to PMS. GRR!
Aunt Lois had sent me a blog to read first thing in the morning and I was in meltdown mode.TEAR-FEST.

Then the text came "RUN FOREST RUN". It was Andy.
I picked up the phone and spoke to Andy about everything but the PMS thing. I never bring that up because then he looks at me weird for the next 5 days. Saying things like, "I think your a little emotional...angry, over-reactive..." That's usually when I become all those things in a snap!

But Andy said something wise. "You need to be doing hills, lots and lots of hills, Hill repeats, Up and down then UP and down..."
The more he spoke the quicker I was changing. The faster he was motivating me. I had to suck it up and get out there and run, HILLS.

I headed down E Holly RD. The road is a barrage of hills. I normally run with Danielle on Thursdays but she had an obligation with the kiddos. I wasn't planning on running hard, definitely NOT hills, if I was even planning on running at all.
But here I was picking a hilly 8 mile route. I wasn't convinced I wanted to hurt.

Aside from not feeling the run, not feeling the hills, not feeling the pain..
I felt winded or maybe it was windy I felt?!
I felt tight, my calves were not loosening up. 
I felt heavy, my legs felt sore from Wednesdays run and leg workout. 
I felt my knees, yes, I was achy, My knees were angry with me. 
I felt the new scab on my bootie, from doing my crunches yesterday at they gym, with a 8lb medicine ball and the incline. 
I felt the snow hitting me in the face, cold wet and refreshing.

I was giving my EVERYTHING, but my EVERYTHING wasnt that great, however, it was still EVERYTHING had in the tank. 

I kept reminding myself it would suck worse if I never started. I knew that I HAD to do this. I had to take the PAIN NOW or when race day came I would have more regrets. You just can't have those, REGRETS, aren't  little things, they are BIG things.

I could hear Andy..."up and down..."
I  ran a  "out and back". I cut my distance down so I could do that stupid hill by my house a couple times at LEAST.
ONCE.."OH GOD..Look up, look up..Go goooo."
TWICE..."ahhh, easy does it, just get up and keep running."
BUT then, I knew I needed to run that stupid hill ONE more time.
THIRD TIMES A CHARM "LOOK AT THE MAILBOX" I screamed at my self. "FOCUS, turn it over, GET UP, make this one your FASTEST." My legs were shaking, I couldn't breath, I pumped my arms and got up on my toes. tackling that hill for the final time.
"God, I am getting so OLD, Thank you Lord, Thank you.." I panted, passing the mailbox and heading down hill towards home.

The whole run I didn't see my pace. I don't have to see my pace to know what it feels like to hurt, to know what it feels like to sweat, be out of breath or want to quit.

Before I even started running I wanted to phone this run in. I gave it my everything, even when my everything was a lot less than normal.
I was surprised to see my pace.

Distance : 8:19
Pace: 8:30
Fastest Mile: Mile 2: 8:15min/mi

NO REGRETS. In EVERY FACET of life. You give your everything, and then try and dig deep for a little bit more. Be kind when you want to rip someones face off, no regrets. Forgive, you never know Gods plan. Life is tricky, there are NO guarantees, that's why you live it with NO regrets, with Integrity, honor, self discipline and LOVE.
Don't wait for your circumstances to change, your emotions to evolve, or people to change. You BE that Change, create your own greatness.


Monday, February 1, 2016

"If you still have BREATH, GRAB IT and NEVER QUIT."

"If  its important, you'll find a way. If not you'll find an excuse."

"Be stronger than your excuses."

I loved that both these quotes that were given to me on my FB page, Running against the ODds had to do with EXCUSES.

The BEST way for me to find myself out of excuses is to great a PLAN FIRST.

MY PLAN: To RUN 10 miles, 10 miles of hills.
Then the excuses came.
"I Ran 11 miles YESTERDAY with Claudia."
"UGH, I didn't sleep, I'm so stinking tired."
"Later, maybe later."
"I woke up late and didn't make it to the gym."
"Maybe I should have a day of rest."

Dragging through the house, feeling like a sloth, I decided to just chill out. I am normally a
"Get UP and GO!" girl.
The only place I wanted to go was back to bed.
I was home alone all weekend. After a spotless house with no hubby and no kids, I was overwhelmed with the destruction they left in just a couple hours of being home.
I had to clean, run, grocery shop and at this particular moment I couldn't spell me name I was so lethargic.
I sipped on my coffee, did my devotional, prayed and then started to feel better. I made breakfast and relaxed and ate. I got caught up on laundry, checked the weather and CHANGED MY PLAN.

THE NEW PLAN: To RUN 13 MILES. RUN hills, taking a route to Holdridge and run a few trails to add injury to insult.
The weather was going to be glorious. No excuses kind of weather! Play outside kind of weather.
My pastor Sunday asked the congregation "remember when you were a kid and played outside..." I chucked listening, "A KID, HA! I still LOVE playing outside!


Pace: 9:25
Fastest mile:
Elevation Gain: 355ft

"If you still have BREATH, GRAB IT and NEVER QUIT." The Revenant
Some of you may think, "13 miles, REALLY?"  Please don't. My 13 miles is no different then the miles or workout you put in as LONG as you gave everything. As long as you aimed HIGH.
My 13 miles were not easy. My legs were sore from running Saturday and Sunday. I took the hardest route I knew accepting the pain before I met it.
I OWNED my RUN before I purchased it.
I can DO this only because GOD says I can. He sees me VICTORIOUS. He has an UNLIMITED supply of my dreams and goals just waiting for one thing..ME.
Me to BELIEVE he is my advocate.
Me to WORK hard for it.
Me to SEEK him for direction, his plan.
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I worked so hard for it today. I took each hill without stopping, sludge spashing in every direction. The tread on my shoes was bogged down with dirt and mud, making it difficult to lift my legs.
I could hear my breath. I could hear my thoughts when I toppled one hill, barely catching my breath to see another one, "AHH, SERIOUSLY." It even hurt to think. I tried to daydream, but the pain kept interrupting my thoughts.
My socks were wet from the mud and my shoes had gravel in them, but I wasn't stopping.
I know how to STOP. I know how to WALK. I needed to run, no matter what RUN.
The trails were scattered with ice and a very slippery clay. I was running 11min/miles. The trails welcomed me at any pace I offered. I could hear the crows and see animal prints in the dirt. Keeping my effort level steady I just ran, or walked, whatever the trail had me do, I did with great pleasure.
WITH every last breath I hit that last mile. I was determined to finish strong. I kept my eyes directed as far as I could see, trying to chase that vision. I tried to get my legs to move faster than my eyes were, but I was so sluggish. My sluggish wasn't enough to quit.
"8 minutes to GUT OUT." I told myself. I reminded myself I can handle 8 minutes of pain, I can handle 8 minutes of burn, But as long as I STILL had BREATH, I was going to GRAB it and NOT QUIT.

"If you still have BREATH, GRAB IT and NEVER QUIT." The Revenant

I loved this movie, It was so INSPIRING. Powerful words. Words to live by.


Thursday, January 28, 2016

January Favorites

January is a painstaking month. It is cold, dreary, and long. To help me get through the January blues I do what most woman do, I shop. Today I went into Target for just side dish bowls and walked out over 100$ later. Pier One, I went to "LOOK", 35$ later, I had a gift card! When I got home I had a box from Honey Stinger on my porch. More GOODIES!

Gift giving is one of my love languages, so often times I am buying something for someone else too. Today was no exeption, I have lots of sweethearts I have goodies for this Valentines Day.

I am posting some of my January Favorites that are getting me through this tumultuous month.

  1. My HONEYSTINGER LOOT. I am an ambassador for Honey Stinger. Their products are my favorite, they are GF and or Organic.
  2. Packing for Florida, I discovered this little gem for my toiletry bag. Neutrogena Body oil. This time of year my skin tends be dryer. I haven't used oil on my skin since I was a teen when I  lubed my body in Baby Oil and baked in the sun. I LOVE THIS. It is lighter and the sesame formula smell is subtle yet very feminine. My skin is so soft, makes me sad I am covering it all back up again.
  3. Before we moved, I had 2 Merrell Down and Dirty neck gaiters. They have not been located. Yesterday, I went out to Dunhams and purchased the Purple "BULA" brand one. I wanted it to run with Danielle this morning. Then afternoon my Honey Stinger gaiter came in the mail. SO lets see how long I have these before they disappear. I love these for running in cold temps. They actually do multiple things.
  4. Due to increase crunches and sit ups my poor skin on my tail bone continues to get abused. I purchased a Medicine ball. As soon as it was blown up, all the boys started to play on it. Boys and balls, they never grow out of them, no pun intended!
    No more butt scabs!
  5. PLAYLIST: "Roses" (Feat.ROZES) The CHAINSMOKERS/ Twenty one Pilots "Stressed out" 
  6. Favorite snack, Nosa Blueberry yogurt with homemade granola.

Distance: 8 miles
Pace: 9.00
Danielle texted me before I left the house "I am not feeling 100% today, you ok running with a slow poke."
Danielle picked a hilly route. I mentioned I needed to be training hills, Well we did today! We gutted it out. We only stopped once, and it wasn't near a hill.

Any one sore from doing their crunches/situps? I'm about to put myself in the hurt locker, 6 pack challenge. I'm going to go make out with my new Medicine ball!

Wednesday, January 27, 2016


I headed to my favorite treadmill. The one all the way on the end, the old ones that have a fan and a "Track" setting. God I love that fan. I set my Runners World magazine in one cubbie and my water and phone in the other.
My plan initially was to hit the TM at about a 8:15 pace and ride it in. But this old bird needs a warm up.
No sooner than I started, I saw Jeff making his way over to the TM's.
I waved at him and gave him a goofy sideways "Peace" symbol. "Whats Up JEFF?!"
"You are on the TM this morning?"
Trying not to be a smart a$$ I replied, "YUP"
He joined me one the vacant one. He is a bit of a germ-a-phobe. It took him 5 minutes to clean the thing down and even lomger to get situated. I was slowly walking on the TM waiting for him.
"Good grief Jeff, Just get on it already!"

He started out mouthy and full of it, I should have seen it coming. I could hardly run he had me cracking up. Jeff is a quirky character. He is 60 something years old and acts like a big kid. He doesn't take me serious, until he has to take me serious. And he doesn't take himself serious until he is serious. He doesn't compete or compare with me, he is honest with me. The kind of honest that he knows I respect, not the kind of honest that he is pumping sunshine up my butt. He is very wise when it comes to running so I take everything he says with a lot of value.
Jeff is the only safe male that I can have in my inner circle without people questioning my relationship with. Or making accusations.

Jeff was doing a progressive run.
"Hmm, sounds like a good idea, me too." I thought.
I did my first mile at a sub 9min/mi. Conversational pace with my incline at 1%.
Second mile, I hit the button 3 times, to pick it up a notch, still maintaining a conversational pace.
Then my TM quit. "UGH" I cried loudly. I forgot to set the timer and the TM stopped.

I quickly punched in my digits and started it back up. The TM felt good, My body felt good. I got a good night sleep, finally. I am not sure if it was the Melatonin or the big swig of NYQUILL. I was desperate for a full night of sleep.

I watched Jeff  punching the buttons every lap. My pace was at a 8:15. I was keeping it steady. He had 5 laps to go and was sweating so bad he actually looked like he got out of spin class.
He is not shy at looking at my numbers. He peaked over.
"At 4 laps I am going to just have to quit talking."  Jeff said.
"Sounds good, I will too, I will put my music in and GO!" I replied then added "EWWW Jeff, you are sweating.."
"ANITA, THIS IS TENACITY!" Pulling his soaked shirt out, he then pointed at my dry tank top and said "THAT IS PUFFY!" That was his way of saying my shirt was dry and still fluffy.
"OK..OK..I see how this is!" I laughed.
At that point his TM hit his "Time to get SERIOUS" lap. He punched his pace up again. I gave him my best version of the "EVIL EYE" and said, "OH YEAH, TIT FOR TAT!!" And I punched the pace up on my TM and turned the volume WAY up on my IPOD.
I still had over 2 miles to go.
As I looked forward and got serious I started adding up what my pace would end up as if I increased my pace every time he did. "OH CRAP!"
He hit the speed button, and looked at me. I hit the speed button. Neither one of us spoke. We got into such a rhythm that we were both running with the same stride.
And again, TIT FOR TAT. I had a mile and a half and I was at a sub 8 min/mi.
Jeff saw me turning it up and laughed.
"Let's go NITA" This is good for you I convinced myself. Nothing was hurting and I was gonna finish this out come HELL Or HIGH WATER. It was ON!
Bam, I heard the "BEEP". He hit the button again. "AHH!" I cried out loud. He looked at me laughing, "I have one more lap!'
"I have more than a mile still."
He finished and looked at my pace. 7:24. 
I threw him my water bottle and asked him to open it for me. My mouth was dry and my gum was as hard as a rock.
My song came on by S.O.B, as he was unscrewing the cap, I sang really loud "GET ME DRINNK!" He started laughing at my terrible singing.
I took a swig getting water everywhere and handed it back to him. I knew people were looking at us but I didn't care.
"Concentrate" he said. I continued to pick up the pace, focusing again.
Jeff handed me the water bottle on the last half mile. I took a quick guzzle. I laughed as I was dripping with more water on me than I had swallowed. I flicked my wet hands at Jeff, laughing.
The laughing felt good. It helped me drive it in.
My last 400m I kept cranking up the pace finishing strong at a sub 7min/mi.
I could see him watching, this really helped encourage me to finish strong, out of breath and sweating.
I had a good run, but even as strong as my run was and as much as I was sweating I still didn't get the same "BREAK THROUGH SWEAT" Jeff had! Thank God, because that is just NASTY!

I still had some fuel in the tank. We finished up with a cool down lap then did legs.
Distance: 7 miles
Pace: 8:00
Time: 56min

I am still doing my crunches/sit ups almost every night. I did 200 tonight. Who else is on this kick with me. I know Michelle B is doing them now. WTG MICHELLE,

Vegan Protein smoothie

Chillis, with a my girlfriend Holly, It was a Mexican rice and steak bowl,
Fish Tacos, cilantro slaw with rice and homemade healthy Bluebery muffins.

Remember winter running is great for spring races. What are you training for? How's your diet? And whos doing those crunches with me?


Monday, January 25, 2016

Your Weakest link.

"The Lord is my Strength and my Song; He has become my Salvation." Psalm 118:14

My morning, I was desperately trying to put one foot in front of the other. If this was any indication of how the rest of my day was going to go I should just go back to bed and start all over again I thought.
And that is EXACTLY what I did.
I didn't sleep all night and that was with me taking my melatonin. I tossed and turned, I played games on my phone, I prayed and I begged. I kicked the blankets off, then buried myself in them. It was terrible. I thought Andy was going to kick my out.
I went back to bed and dozed off for about a hour and a half. There was a day I would have felt so guilty for going back to bed. But when you cant even finish your coffee you know you have a problem.

Today is day my third day running. I thought for sure I was going to have a crappy run. I didn't know if my body would carry me or if I would be carrying my body home.

I began coaching my mind early. HILLS, lots and lots of HILLS. I told myself it was going to hurt but I was going to run them till my soles fell off.

I ran 6 miles of hills. I had picked up some "Vitatops"for mom and I at Krogers. Mom lives in a very hilly community, I decided I would just "Run" them to her house.  I kept a steady pace and just ran the biggest hills over and over and over again. That awful hill by my house I ran 4 times I looked at my watch and felt great at 5 miles so I decided I would run another mile, hitting that big one by my house ONE more time.
I looked twice at my watch, "How could this be?"
The Plan: I was going to run hills at a pace that didn't break records but was just steady and no stopping.
My body wanted to go another mile but time didn't allow for that. I felt so strong and my pace was shocking.

Distance: 6:18
Pace: 8:14
Time: 50:52

Collision: In one day I felt my weakest and my strongest.
In my weakest position I felt so vulnerable. It was like looking into a dark room,  I couldn't see what was inside, I had no idea at that point what I should be doing. I decided not to go IN. I folded my cards and accepted my weakness reminding myself that I am struggling with some health issues and I need to listen to my body.
Sometimes you have to go backwards to go forwards.
WOULD I have had such a great run had I not listened to my body and took a nap?
Its hard to say, but I am guessing NOT.
But even at my strongest point I had to think about my weakest link. My MIND.
Why cant I fight the mental demons the way I fought through the pain of hills? I struggle with the craziest thoughts finding me in places I shouldn't be camping out, let alone visiting.
Everyday I find myself able to conquering mountains, but my thoughts are my biggest disaster.
Today, I was reminded that GOD supplies my Strength and He gives Strength when I am weak. I just have to be STILL and Know that HE is God, I am nothing.

You are what you EAT:
Organic bison bites, Fresh egg (Whites) and D'Anjou pear. Organic Tart Cherry Juice
Juice Plus.
Dinner: Chicken cordon bleu, Asparagus, rice 
I enjoy cooking. I love making my own sauces and roux's. Dinner was a little heavy, but I do everything in moderation.
I ate more through out the day, I am a grazer.

This year I decided I would get back into online run  journaling. I have been doing really good at logging my runs into Garmin Connect. And I love it.I still keep at paper calendar.


Sunday, January 24, 2016

2 MILE BONUS!! AIRHEAD move #3645

I stepped out of my box Saturday and sent Lacey a text to see if she wanted to run when I got of work.
The last time I ran on a Saturday after work was a run on the Polly Ann trail with Lacey.  My legs were swollen after being on my feet for two days making our 19 mile run torturous.

I didn't even look at my legs when I slipped out of my heels. I didn't have time to look, I got home at 4:10 and Lacey was going to be over at 4:30. I was still layering up when she arrived, early! We both struggle with a little ADD, I was struggling focusing with her chatting in my ear and me trying to remember what I was wearing.  I think we got out of the house closer to 4:45.
We just needed to get a few miles in.
I told Lacey how I was pacing JOAN for her first marathon at the Martian, but if I didn't kick my training up SHE was going to be pacing me!
4 miles. It was great. The first 2 were slow, the 2nd two were sub 8 and hilly. We both knew we needed to hurt a little. It was a welcomed burn. I was very grateful to Lacey for pushing me and running with me. As we came up the last hill to my house Lacey says "COME ON, All the way to the sign!" And we punched it into gear.

I know I need to add miles and add another day. My training plan requires me running 6 days a week. I am not sure I can make that happen and NOT have my family trade me in for a new model.
I can manage 5 day though.
"..you will need to commit to at least 5 days of consistent training for a minimum of 14 weeks."

SUNDAY. Sundays have really become my "Long Run with Lacey Day" now for a while. I look forward to this day. It is the only day that Lacey can really treat herself to, making this a treat for me too.
I ran over 2 miles to her house and together we ran over 11. I thought I only ran 14 miles today, but after looking at my Garmin I had a 2 mile BONUS. I clearly can't think and run. I ran 16 miles today and felt awesome. I have NO idea how I miscalculated 2 miles, other than me just being an airhead.
The last 2 miles my training program has me actually running at a threshold pace. I was able to run them at a sub 8 through hills with pure JOY!

It is the greatest feeling in the world when you think "HOW THE HECK I AM GOING TO DO THAT."
I know I just have to get reunited with the burn, the burning lungs, the burning legs, the burn that drives you past mediocre.
Intensity. I have to WANT it so bad that the temporary pain is nothing compared the Glory of going not TO pain but THROUGH the pain to the passion. The passion that achieves goals, dreams and that puts you beyond your comfort zone.

I am closing out my week with only 31 miles. But I am happy with them all.
I did over 500 crunches this week. My butt scab finally fell off!

I am Grateful for every mile God has given me.

Pace: 8:58
Time: 2:23
Great run with Lacey, Over heated, dropped a layer off at Laceys. Ran with no water or nutrition. NOT real brilliant.


Thursday, January 21, 2016

What Hal says about..SIT UPS

Hal Koegner discussed core work in his section "Training"

1. Selective Weight Training: Low weight/high reps
"helps build the strength you need out on the course, without building bulk."

2. Targeted Core Work: Specifically ab work
"will go a long way toward preventing injuries and supporting a strong, healthy posture."

Hal tries to do 100-200 crunches EVERYDAY.

SO CRUNCHES have been my intentional training regimen. My abs have been sore now for 3 days. I have a butt scab that wont go away. I had to modify my crunches at home because the friction was stinging so bad. This actually was brilliant making me work my oblique's more. Not that it felt brilliant but HEY, If I can get a six pack by the summer at 42 years old I will be happy!

Indian Springs Metropark
The trails are cleared off making this a beautiful and peaceful run. Ran with Danielle. Perfect winter weather, no wind, soft snow, 17 degrees.
Distance: 8.02 miles.
Pace: 8:27
Good progressive run the last 5 miles. We were not chatting too much at this point!

Whos doing Crunches with me???