But is it?
Maybe for you, but for me..In all honesty...It is not always so easy.
The things I write, the things I say I BELIEVE.
I want to be that person all the time that I speak of.
Whether it is in TRAINING or in LIFE.
But I am not. I fail often. Lately I have more than often failed.
It has been 13 weeks. Just over 3 months. Since the loss of Ariel. She consumes my mind. When my world is lifeless and silent my heart cries out in agony. It cries so loud that I can not think. I am disabled. I invert. I retreat. I shut down.
I give the best I have. I am so sorry if I have disappointed anyone or hurt anyone it has been unintentional. Just Breathing. One day at a time. When I want to stay under the covers all day I crawl out of bed with the best I have. It may not seem like much to the average person but it is my all. Tears rest in my eyes wanting to escape all day long.
I do not know where I would be if I did not have my boys to take care of or miles to run.
So I decided to start training early for Boston this week.
I can organize my training easier than anything. I feel like Forrest Gump. I can just run and run and run....
I can organize and compartmentalize my thoughts, plans, and prayers in the company of adrenaline and sweat.
I am most comfortable with myself during a run.
SUNDAY: Sick. Rested
MONDAY: 8 miles
THURSDAY: 8 miles
It is supposed to be nice out Saturday, I may try and get a couple miles in.
Training is also about Nutrition.
I have been working real hard on eating right.
My Mother in law got me a Magic Bullet for my birthday. Even when I do not feel like eating- making a smoothie is really easy and healthy.
Some of the ingredients I put in them:
- Organic Vanilla yogurt ( protein, low in fat)
- Tart Cherry juice (good for inflamation0
- raspberries, bueberries, strawberries (Antioxidants)
- Juice Plus Complete Protien powder ( vitamins, protien)
- Rice milk (low fat, easy on the belly)
- Peanut butter (protien)
- Bananas (prevents cramps)
- Spinach (high in potassium)
"Just because you Fail does not mean you are a Failure."
Just Keep keeping on. In TRAINING or in Life.
Give others grace, Give yourself grace.
Be patient with others. Be patient with yourself.