After work I went home to check on the boys, change and run a few miles at the gym. And keeping to all that I found myself in the gym only I forgot my shoes! UGH. I had them in my hand , I thought, well I thought I did but then when I REALLY thought about it..I didn't!
Driving back home I talked Andy into running 3 miles with me before dinner. I am ever so grateful he excepted the invitation because I don't think I would have done it without him. The voices in my head were battling back and forth about running and putting my pajamas on was the voice that was winning.
We were not running fast but it took every ounce of energy to put one foot in front of the other. I felt like I was at a turtle crawl or cry because I was so miserable. I wasn't much for conversation which is unlike me all together. This probably made Andys run better not having to listen to me for 3 miles.
Doing what has to be done it not always fun and even when you do it you do not always feel great about it you just feel responsible. Or accomplished.
Seriously, I am glad I ran but not even that glad..
"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up"
As I think about todays run and this verse I am reminded of relationships. I don't go on Facebook to often and when I do I just scroll through it like a People Magazine. (I stole that line from "Melissa T" a client and friend of mine.)
But I recently discovered that someone I know that I have tried very hard to get along with blocked me or defriended me or something from Facebook. I am not all up on the privacy stuff with Facebook So I do not get it real well but I understand it enough. I was quite shocked by it because it seems so adolescent. And for a couple days I even let it rent space in my head. Sometimes you can try and try to take the high road. You can "Kill em with kindness", "Turn the other Cheek", Forgive them 70x7 and still not win them over. At the end of the day you are exhausted from trying. But you just pick up your head and without being a total butt kisser continue to do what is right. Doing the right thing does not always FEEL right and doing the wrong thing often does FEELS right but they are just feelings and they are not TRUTH.
Relationships are difficult. This is the first time I have ever had to deal with someone that flat out does not like me. "Deal" with is the key word. I don't want you to think that I am like by everyone that just sounds as crazy as being defriended! But it is crazy to have heard some of the things this person has said behind my back but they are only words and "vain babblings". Even knowing the things I know I continue to try. When I am tired and sore from ineffective effort I try not to retaliate.
So in exhaustion, weakness, and feeling beat down we have to keep going and do what has to be done.
Maybe you have given up on a relationship, Or maybe you have been damaged by the actions of others and find yourself backing away. Can I just encourage you to keep going. Even if it does not FEEL good : doing the right thing is still GOOD.