"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, Who is in you, Whom you have received from God? ... So use every part of your body to give glory back to God..." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Friday, August 2, 2013

When doing the right thing does not always FEEL good.

I am absolutely empty. I really HAD to get a few miles in after work tonight. After 9 hours of high heals my legs were achy and tired. And yet I knew that I had to throw my feelings out the door and do what had to be done..RUN.
After work I went home to check on the boys, change and run a few miles at the gym. And keeping to all that I found myself in the gym only I forgot my shoes! UGH. I had them in my hand , I thought, well I thought I did but then when I REALLY thought about it..I didn't!

Driving back home I talked Andy into running 3 miles with me before dinner. I am ever so grateful he excepted the invitation because I don't think I would have done it without him. The voices in my head were battling back and forth about running and putting my pajamas on was the voice that was winning.

We were not running fast but it took every ounce of energy to put one foot in front of the other. I felt like I was at a turtle crawl or cry because I was so miserable. I wasn't much for conversation which is unlike me all together. This probably made Andys run better not having to listen to me for 3 miles.

Doing what has to be done it not always fun and even when you do it you do not always feel great about it you just feel responsible. Or accomplished.
Seriously, I am glad I ran but not even that glad..

Gal 6:9
"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up"

As I think about todays run and this verse I am reminded of relationships. I don't go on Facebook to often and when I do I just scroll through it like a People Magazine. (I stole that line from "Melissa T" a client and friend of mine.)
But I recently discovered that someone I know that I have tried very hard to get along with blocked me or defriended me or something from Facebook. I am not all up on the privacy stuff with Facebook So I do not get it real well but I understand it enough. I was quite shocked by it because it seems so adolescent. And for a couple days I even let it rent space in my head. Sometimes you can try and try to take the high road. You can "Kill em with kindness", "Turn the other Cheek", Forgive them 70x7 and still not win them over. At the end of the day you are exhausted from trying. But you just pick up your head and without being a total butt kisser continue to do what is right. Doing the right thing does not always FEEL right and doing the wrong thing often does FEELS right but they are just feelings and they are not TRUTH.
Relationships are difficult. This is the first time I have ever had to deal with someone that flat out does not like me. "Deal" with is the key word. I don't want you to think that I am like by everyone that just sounds as crazy as being defriended! But it is crazy to have heard some of the things this person has said behind my back but they are only words and "vain babblings". Even knowing the things I know I continue to try. When I am tired and sore from ineffective effort I try not to retaliate.

So in exhaustion, weakness, and feeling beat down we have to keep going and do what has to be done.
Maybe you have given up on a relationship, Or maybe you have been damaged by the actions of others and find yourself backing away. Can I just encourage you to keep going. Even if it does not FEEL good : doing the right thing is still GOOD.



  1. I can't imagine anyone not liking you Anita. You are so sweet. It's their loss. But if they got to know you they would love you.

    1. I am not perfect. And to be honest there are times when I don't like myself. I can hear my heart and sometimes those feelings makes it out of my mouth in shame. But this person actually does know me. I believe she wants to like me. And when she takes the effort really does enjoy me but something sabotages that within in her. I just keep trying that is what I would want someone to do with me~

  2. I can remember - not too long ago - when I was down on my knees, bawling, and begging God not to "make" me forgive a certain person. They had hurt me. They were wrong. Why should I have to be the one to offer love and forgiveness?
    I wasn't perfect - and it took a couple of years, but I did eventually forgive and God did restore the relationship. They never said they were sorry. They never admitted they were wrong. But after I finally gave it over to God completely, I didn't even care.
    The end result is that I learned it is not always all about me! Sometimes we are just a little-bitty part of a master plan :)
    And I learned to be thankful for the support of my husband and kids. There is nothing quite like having someone you love turn their back on you to make you appreciate the "gifts" that you take for granted every single day!

    1. Well said Flaming June, what a great perspective. I really can appreciate that. I needed to hear this. You are right when we are hurt we put all our eggs in the pain basket and miss out on the blessing God has put in our path. Every flower has to grow through a little dirt!