I woke up at 6am this morning. The first thoughts that came to my mind was Ariel.
- I thought of how I spent Mothers Day last year. Ariel made me a picture with photos of her and I for Mothers day.
- I then thought of my own mother. I was sad to think I could not recall a Mothers day with her. I am sure I celebrated it with her but I could not bring one to my mind.
- I really wanted to stay positive so I traded all sad thoughts for something joyous. I thought of Andys Mom and how good she has been to me over the last 20 years. I have actually know Andys mom longer than I had know my own mother.
- Then I thought of all the other mothers that were having a special day or that needed special prayer.
Andy got up much earlier that normal realizing that I was awake. With his eyes half closed he went down and made me my favorite coffee. Guatemalan French Press.
It was DIVINE.
I didn't want to wake the boys up so we just sat in bed together drinking our coffee.
We really didn't have time to open gifts before church but we did take the time to pray as a family. This was so special to me. I love hearing my boys say their own individual prayers.
If I just left it like that Mothers Day would seen perfect. But boys will be boys. Even in great circumstances and special days they still argue, bicker and instigate one another. But we all tried a little bit harder.
Desperately trying to ignore them we made it through church and headed to brunch.
We went and visited Ariel today. It has been 7 months now. It seems like yesterday.
Most of the time I eat fairly well. But there are times when you just gotta live a little! And holidays are one of those times! Times to get seconds on desserts and lick the grease off your fingers. It is times like this that you eat for the pure enjoyment of taste and worry about how you will recover later!
Not able to move after lunch we sat in the parking lot and opened gifts. Each of my boys wrote me letters. Austins letter was a half a page long typed. It was beautiful. He writes like his father. In so many ways Austin and I go head to head but as I read his letter comparing himself to me I was reminded of how much we are alike. I am as hard on Austin as I am myself. I am so thankful for his kind heart.
"I like that feeling when I know you are proud of me, when you look at me and smile I get the feeling in my stomach that tells me that you love me."
That is when I started looking for Kleenex.
And Alec's card, "The last 6-7 months you have been through alot. But through everything that happened you have not lost your faith in Jesus."
Children watch more than just our actions. They watch our faith, our fears, and even our inaction.
"So HE put us on that hill together the HE planned, He molded you, He shaped you, He prepared you to be the mommy, aunt, and wife that today he looks at and says.."I knew all along, I don't ever make mistakes.""
Andy's words are always so perfect and poetic.
After reading my letters I opened my gifts. Andy got me the GARMIN 10!!!!!
And the boys bought me a sweet pair of Under Armor slides! Because I always borrow theirs!
My Mothers Days letters and cards were still my favorite.
We had a great visit with my sister-in-law Deb after all brunch. Mom was there and so was my other sister-in-law Becky and her family.
We had a great time but I was going into carb shock.
As we were driving home I resigned to the fact that I needed a nap. Austin even said he would join me for my Mothers Day run when we got home. But I would be a zombie if I tried to keep moving.
I was out cold in a food coma when Austin came in quietly to see if I was awake to run. It had only been an hour but I was struggling to revive myself.
It meant so much to me that he wanted to run with me that I dragged my lifeless body out of bed. I knew it was for the greater good to get moving because I wouldn't sleep if I didn't get going.
Austin running with me was the Icing on my CAKE! Even though he was running a sub 8 minute run it felt so good to have him next to me. The wind was crisp and bold as it blew at us. I was out of breath and cold. With a bloated belly and lethargic limbs I was determined to keep pace with Austin. He asked deep questions and ran without a struggle. It was almost comically to watch him carry on his pace and want to have a full conversation. And his questions and topics were ones that needed thought. The only thoughts I had was "Oh My Goodness do I feel OLD!"
It was a great Day. I am so thankful and grateful for everything. I have more than I could ask for.