To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me. (Colossians 1:29)
Another long run with a partner. Sundays long run I was grateful to have "Ken" and "Lacey" to run most of my 14 mile run with and today the blessing continued as "Paula" met me for my 16 miler.
The forecast called for scattered thunderstorms and showers for the last 2 days. But again God kept the clouds taped shut for a couple hours while I ran. The bugs were a nuisance but were really not biting and the back roads were so peaceful that I almost forgot for a MINUTE that I was running 30 miles in 2 days.
But the fatigue today did not go into hiding. I felt like Weak Sauce. I could hear myself whining...
"Ugh...My stomach hurts.."
"My legs are so heavy."
"Are we done YET?"
"Is that a HILL..Oh Lord.."
It is in my Weakness that He is Strong. I humbly am reminded of how I can not do this. I feel so inadequate. 50 miles??? In 1 day.....?
Andy this past week has conquered the longest run he has ever ran. He ran 15 miles. When Andy stumbled up the driveway soaking wet and dripping he looked broken. His clothed were stuck to him like second skin and the Ipod was trashed from the showers. He looked at me with exhaustion and despair and said "Anita...I couldn't go 1 more mile, Do you ever feel like you can't go one more mile?"
OH Boy did I feel like that this morning after running with "Paula". I have ran marathons, why can't I run a 16 mile run at the slowest pace I have ever ran?
As I read this verse, this was ME. I wasn't just struggling with my energy, I was even struggling with His energy. I was struggling to claim the Finish God had already granted me.
Pain and fatigue will really hijack you physically, mentally and spiritually. I could feel the doubting demons trying to sabotage my run.
I had to remind myself I am weak in myself, I am nothing on my own. And when I recognize HIS Power in my humility he builds my strength, my confidence and all my needs.
I am looking for some tips!! Anyone ever run an Ultra Marathon I could really use some words of wisdom and encouragement!