There is something humbling about bending over a hotel toilet retching your brains out.
After a 8 hour drive through Michigan, Canada and ending in New York my belly was feeling quite bloated. I chalked it up to "My waist band is too tight."
At 12:30 in the morning I quietly snuck off the bathroom.
And again at 1:30am and many many more times.
There is nothing girly about what my body was putting me through.
"How is this happening to me God?"
After wiping my face I crawled back into bed for the 4th or fifth time.
Even though I was sicker than snot I didn't have a fever.
I prayed.. And as I prayed there was no anxiety. I had no fear of not running Boston in 2 days.
Until I ran back to the bathroom at 3:30am.
It hurt soo bad. There was nothing left in me but a body weak and lifeless. My flesh turned clammy and my pjs were soaked. My skin was burning up. "What was happening to me?" I thought as my body was drenched with sweat.
I didn't think I could make it back to bed when Andy came and picked me up. The room was spinning and everything was getting dark, very very dark. I got concerned when I heard panic his voice. Not wanting him worry I said " I'll be ok."
It is 9:49 am. We have been driving now for an hour. I have drank 20 oz of water. ate a banana and took 3 Motrin.
We just let go and let God.
I am going to take it 1 hour at a time.
I have kept it all down.
Having you head in a toilet is as humbling as it comes.
Just another reminder GOD is in CONTROL.
Anita
I read your inspirational blog, but never comment. I have to comment today. I will be praying that you heal and are ready for the race. Positive thoughts and prayers heading your way.
ReplyDeleteKaren
Thank you Karen. I am on my knees and humbly reminded that God really does control everything. He gives and takes away.
DeleteThank you for the prayers and positive thoughts.
Praying Nita!
ReplyDeleteThank you Michelle, Can you believe this is happening? I know those who are praying for me are getting a blessing. Thank you so much.
DeleteFather in Heaven, I pray for Anita, I pray for you to wrap your arms around her with all of your love and give her your healing and grace. I pray for a good nights rest and good nutrition in her body as she prepares for the race set befor her. I pray for her faith in you to sustain her. In your name AMEN.
ReplyDelete"May he grant you according to your hearts desire, and fulfill all of your purpose."
Psalm 20:4
I would love to pray for you on mile #5.
HIS strenght will carry you!!!!
Lacey Randall
Lacy, Your prayer is like instant spiritual nourishment. I am so appreciative of you taking the time to pray this over me. And to share this with me.
DeleteI believe in the Power of Prayer.AND am so grateful.
I love the verse you shared..Thank you.
Oh no! Sorry to hear this!!! You still have a good amount of time to get healthy, and people CAN and DO run marathons with the flu (at least this crazy one does). Stay hydrated and you can finish it!!!
ReplyDeleteYour Right Michelle. You have ran through the flu..And today you ran through SNOW.
DeleteYou are such an inspiration to me. I think of you often and gain strength from your testimony.
Can not wait to hear about your run, I prayed for you last night and this morning when I awoke.
I will most certainly be praying for you. I will be in church tomorrow while you are running - and what better time/place to be praying for you!? This is just a test of Faith. Can you really just give it all to God? Sometimes we must be truly weak before we can fully experience His strength!
ReplyDeleteDear Flaming June..You nailed it! I actually thought about this. Maybe God Wanted me on my knees...AND trust me He put me there for quite a few hours!
DeleteI have peace. It comes still with a belly Ache but I believe God Heals and that He is Good all the time.
It takes sometimes all the strength to die to Self and Give it to HIM.
Another reminder that I truly embrace.
Thank you for your prayers.