"Nothing is intolerable that is necessary." Jeremy Taylor
I started yesterday out with a run. Claudia and I got 6 miles in before I had to go to chemo. I try not to get frazzled but what I end up finding is myself tucked in the woods looking for leaves that are not poisonous with tummy issues. Nerves.
Tuesday, when I got my blood draw my numbers were not good. My hemoglobin had dropped to 8.6 and my neutrophil count was down to 1.3. This caused some ruckus.
Andy asked the question "How low does it have to get....?"
I was just about there. Deborah my PA asked if I had a menstrual cycle because my hemoglobin had dropped so low. "No, I have only had 1 menstrual cycle in 12 weeks."
I added that I am having terrible hot flashes.
"Yes, the chemo suppresses your estrogen...."
She didn't seem to concerned saying that I was at the drugs nader, that typically 2 weeks out from the Carboplatin your numbers drop the lowest.
We left the office planning for our scheduled chemo Wednesday at 10am.
Mom rolled in before us. It wasn't nearly as busy as last week. We found a chair and soon after Alec showed up. Alec had a blow out on I75. He drove 5 miles down to Dixie and pulled in at Walgreens.
A police officer had pulled some guy over. He came over to Alec and asked him where he was going.
"My mom has chemo and I was going to be with her."
The police officer escorted him to my chemo! That was really nice.
Tammy was cleaning my port and preparing me for my poke. Alec couldn't watch. Poor kid. He was trying to be brave.
Before she was able to really get my premeds in she came over to discuss my having to do home shots to increase my white count.
This was new. Andy was going to have to give me shots 4 days in a row of Granix
to help get my white count up. More pokes.
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| The UPS man delivers these. |
Within 10 minutes I was OUT sawing logs. That darn Benydryl.
Everything was pretty smooth and I was home by 2pm sleeping it off.
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| Hot flashes and snoring...A site for sore eyes! |
The problem with the Benydryl is you initially cash out, but then it has the reverse effects on you at bedtime. I woke up about 4pm from napping and I have NOT gone to sleep yet!
Our air went out yesterday, I had hot flashes from the bad place, my legs were twitching and I couldn't SLEEP. Because I knew it was the Benydryl I never got frustrated, don't get me wrong, I was pleading with God to put me to sleep, but I didn't get upset.
Just a brief lil update.
Thank you for the awesome sliders Loren and Angie.
I have gotten some very special cards in the mail. I save everyone. They lift my spirits up so much.
I know this is a long process, I am so grateful to all of you that have continued to love, support and encourage me in this.
"Nothing is intolerable that is necessary." Jeremy Taylor
So many of us struggle with health issues, family issues, life issues to broaden the spectrum. But many of us get so discouraged we quit fighting. We loose ourselves in our pain. We get derailed and forget to keep fighting and just settle. This cancer and all its treatment is necessary. But more importantly it is necessary to stay positive and have a good attitude to help me tolerate the process more.
I encourage you to keep fighting. Keep doing the hard things. Don't compromise because you are tired. Pause. Take a breath and get back out there.
Anita~
As I’m reading this, my heart starts pumping fast and then I’m waiting to turn the page to read the next chapter. Then I realize this isn’t a book I am reading this is happening to a friend of mine. And now I feel like crying. I’m praying for you Anita.
ReplyDeleteDiane, Thank you for the prayers. God is good all the time. He never lets me down. He has heard those prayers and I have received so many blessings in this cancer of mine. The journey is tough, but the love that friends like you have given me have trumped my pain and hurts. Yes, I still feel them but I rehearse the words of encouragement and that strengthens and comforts me. Thank YOU for you consistency to me. I luv ya sis.
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