The heart of man plans his way,but the Lord establishes his steps.Proverbs 16:9
My heart sank. I felt so crushed and I had not even gotten out of bed yet. "Anita, what part are you not getting? Do not spend any money today." Andy hollered at me with firmness. I was arguing with him that today was opening registration for Bayshore Marathon in Traverse City. "But..." I argued. I knew by the tone it was better to just drop it. So I layed there defeated.
It was my fault. I overspent. I love buying gifts and giving presents. "And now here everyone gets a gift but me" I thought as I laid there pouting. Doesn't that just take the cake! Buyers Remorse. We don't use credit cards, though we have them they are for Emergency only...This would not qualify as an emergency. My mind twirled..It is on their website, last year the marathon closed out in 5 days and the half marathon in 30 hours. SO sad. So disappointed. Marathon number 3 a bust!
2012 was looking like the "Year of Defeat and Disappointment" and it hadn't even started yet!
I got the boys off to school and came back home to get ready for my run at Indian Springs Metropark with "Danielle". 26 Degrees. Good grief do I even have enough clothes to keep me warm? I am gonna look like the Michelan Man running today. Even though it was sunny it was freezing, and cold and me are not on good terms. But running on the DREADMILL is like dancing with the devil and I would rather run in the sun and be a bit cold then have a date with him.
It was a beautiful run. The tree branches looked like white deer antlers. The path was cut right through the trees. Everything was so white and majestic. I was in awe. It was a lot easier running on this path then it was yesterday when we got out first snow. It was so fresh yesterday that I was having to run into traffic on the road because nothing was shoveled. Yesterday I felt like Frogger dodging in and out of traffic. I had a few slips but no falls. I got splashed a few times but never ran over. Today, I was safe. My path was paved for me. I ran next to "Danielle" this morning. I was a bit tired today and a bit disappointed over the marathon, but ran with peace. With peace that supplied me with joy. This Joy acted as a shield deflecting all negativity. It was a great run with my new running friend.
"You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever" Psalms 16:11
When I returned home a bit of that sadness creeped in. Andy text me from work ...
I jumped out of the tub laughing and singing. I couldn't even think of what I was doing! Opening drawers and closing them empty handed, I walked to the dryer and back to my bedroom dancing around the hall. Sheba looked at me like I was crazy. My head was just spinning. Thank YOU GOD!! Thank You! Thank you! I twisted my hips and through my head back dancing in my room with my ipod blasting. "For you that know me -know-I am that kind of SILLY!"
"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."
Ralph Waldo Emerson