30 miles of thoughts, ideas and issues

After stretching,rolling, icing, Epson salt bath, trying to nap, praying, eating, hydrating and walking I feel pretty good to run another 16 miles tomorrow. I think.
My brain is still a little sore from hanging out with myself so long.

I thought it would be fun to go through a  few thoughts I had run through my mind over 30 miles.
Its crazy the things you think about. Lacey and I laughed at how crazy our thoughts are and how we converse back and forth with them, like a third party, or a split personality, or two. sometimes I think there is a party of personalities in my head. Its like a debate club, or a insane asylum even better.

Ken added 5 miles, walk breaks and easy does it.

1. Dear God.....
2. "Lets get this show on the road, I have over 5 hours of running."
3. "Its 6AM, why is it so stinking hot, this is not a good sign, think positive, think positive."
4. "Where are we at? Don't look at your watch, just run."
5. "DEER! There is another Deer! AWE! OH and another!"
6. "Should I walk the hills, Nah, get over it, just take it slow."
7. "UGH,Maybe I shouldn't have ate that last night.."
8. "Nasty, is that a sweat stash? Yep, great"
9. "Andys Garmin rocks, Hmm, I wonder is he would notice if it came up missing?"
10. "Slow down sister, you have a long way to go."
11. "WALK, there's a HILL, I am walking that beast."
12. "My foots hurting, and my knee, or is that my quad, or maybe my quad and my knee!"
13. "Crap, I am running out of water, I gotta pee, Mcdonalds, just sneak in, they wont notice."
14. "YUP, that's FOR SURE my FOOT, these shoes have got to GO."
15. "Say goodbye to your running partner, turn up the music and suck it up."
16. "I hope my water I stashed melted, OH YEAH, ice cold water. Thank YOU Lord."
17. "Heading home with my jacked up foot and sweatfest body. I have soaked through everything."
18. "Andys HOME! YEAH! He hasn't left for church yet. Andy looked frightened when I started him, do I look that bad?"
19. "6 minutes, I only lost 6 minutes changing shoes and eating the peanut butter roll up Andy made me. AWE, he Loves me." Smiling
20. I hope no one sees me half naked from church, especially because I am playing hookie. Anita, you never play hookie, its Ok, Is it OK? I am sure it'll just give people something to talk about, Like 'There's Anita, with her Idol worship of running, putting her running before God.' Oh well, God knows my heart and thoughts."  I thought about this too long.
21. "Where is Lacey? I am running pretty good, my ailments went away and I feel pretty good."
22. Phone ringing. "Its MEGAN, She LOVES me, she is checking on me. AWE! Love tank is full again."
23. "Its so hot, I think I am withering away, Where is Lacey? She should be here any minute."
24. "BEEP BEEP! ITS LACEY! I want to run into her arms but I smelled so BAD." I chose to pee behind her van, she brought me toilet paper! I was cracking up!
25. "Lacey, its so HOT." She came with a cooler with ice and cold cloths. And ice water and a banana. Seriously, this girl is the best, so thoughtful.
26. It was Aunt Lois's birthday, I told Lacey, I was trying to think of her in that last few miles of total SUCK. She is a Cancer survivor. Inspiration.
27. "I'm falling apart, total sun, another hill, Im walking, I don't care, I may never run again."
28. "2 miles, I cant feel my legs, legit, they are numb, but my whole body hurts, how is that possible?"
29. "Last Mile." Lacey was coaxing me to keep going, The last quarter mile I saw the end. "Go ANITA, come on, pick it up and turn it over."
30. "DONE, Thank YOU LORD, thank YOU for giving me this victory."

MY SUPER HERO! LACEY!

I ran the first 15 with Ken. He was running like a beast. I had to keep asking him to bring it down. We finished a little after 8am. I had some encouraging messages. Andy was incredible making me food and he even found me on Fish Lake road and brought me water.  He has really been awesome the last few weeks supporting me. I take back everything I have ever said!

Andy brought me home my favorite salad from Paneras.

The smile for Lacey.

Now, I am anxious to see how my body does for another 16 miles tomorrow. Prayers!

Anita

Fear keeps you just comfortable.

Injury gives place to FEAR.
Fear keeps you in a safe place, a comfortable pace.

With the Woodstock Ultra just a few weeks away I would say that I have done very good at getting my long runs in.

Even though I have ran another ultra the only plan I use is the same one I use for everything.
The "I needa Anita run"

I was asked today "How do you feel about your training?"
It made me think.
Well, I am sore, tired and crabby, therefore I think I am right on track.

But I replied also " I think I am where I want to be, I just want to make sure WHERE I WANT to be is WHERE I SHOULD BE!"

So I am going to try something a bit different on my next long run. I am going to try and run 15 miles with no walking.
Last week, when I ran my back to back long run I had an average pace of 10:45. Then my 14 miler that proceeded the 28 miler I tried to maintain a 9m/m with no walking. And I did.

But speed work, none for over 12 weeks! I have been afraid that I would hurt myself, get injured or have a crappy run.
With NO runs under a sub 8 minute pace I thought I might try to pick it up a little bit. Thursdays I have running club with the kids at 8:30am. We run between 5-6 miles. But I get up at 6am to try to get some extra miles in solo.

I had a full plate of SUCK and no coffee to wash it down. I was trying to run 5 miles with an average pace of sub 8.
I thought I was going to DIE at mile 2. Every 3 or 4 minutes I tried to think of another plan to get out of hurting to bad. My body was in absolute SHOCK. I have trained so long for endurance not speed that I had forgot how bad it felt.
Mile 1 9:14
Mile 2 7:44
Mile 3 7:21
Mile 4 7:23
Mile 5 7:23
Average 7:49
As I approached mile 4, I continued to think of an exit plan. My home stretch is up hill. I knew it was going to hurt worse that even running 28 miles.
The pain circulated from my lungs to my legs. My abs were even hurting. I thought I might slip on the loose gravel and fall on my face. I tried to break it down into minutes. Like you would do it you were in a spin class. The instructor barks "UP UP turn up your gears, 4 minutes,UP!"
Anita barks "DEEP BREATH, UP UP, come on, 4 minutes, up!"

As I finished my 5 miler, I thought for sure I was going to PUKE. My legs were shaking, my stomach was hurting and I was STOKED. I did it. As much as it hurt, it was worth it.

We can add to todays gut wrenching, lung sucking run another 5 miles of recovery with the running club. I  enjoyed the trails with the kids laughing at a much slower pace.


Anita

What Piece of WISDOM would you share?

I posted this question on my FB page Running against the OdDs. I was so thankful to those that took the time and shared their answers. I enjoyed reading these little nuggets of wisdom. People always like to go to the COMMENT section. So do I.

 

I know each of these runners. Some not so well, but there is a connection to each.

Kris Taubitz Stay balanced (running, strength training and cross training with other aerobic activities)~signed an injured runner making her come back...the smart way (and smart is NOT always easy for runners)

• Kris is a running partner of a lady I go to church with. Rachel Dahlin. I have never actually ran with Kris but we have a love for Christ and running. With these 2 commonalities I almost feel like we know each other more than we do. I have Ran into Kris once running and once at Target!

  

  Kris and Rachel

Erin Atkins Find good running partners! My favorite quote: "if you want to fast, run alone, if you want to go far, run together"!

Erin is in the middle!

• Met her a couple years ago in a running club. Our kids go to the same school. Great smile, great gal. She is always trying to get her miles in!

Rachel Karwoski Dahlin ^^^^ditto that! ~signed previously injured runner

• Knew her parents before her. Her parents are greeters at our church. They were always sharing Rachels and Kris's running adventures with me. I have now had the privilege of running with her a few times.

 

 

Sue Barnes Don't quit.

 

• Sue is a rocking cheerleader, runner, coach and motivator amongst many other titles. I met and worked with Sue when I direct "Run for a Remedy 5K". She worked for the CRIM at that time and now works with the Brooksie Way. She is AWESOME! 

 

 

Sarah Petzold Fox Don't compare yourself to other runners, your on your own journey!

 

• Sarah is a newer runner making great strides. I get so excited seeing her training and working so hard at her goals. I know Sarah from church. She has been working really hard and this year will be her first CRIM!!

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What Wisdom do you have? I could use some ULTRA Wisdom tips!

1.What kind of trail shoes do you wear and why? Do you wear trail shoes or just use your road shoes?

2. Do you run with a Camelback? What do you do on runs over 25 miles?

3. What Nutrition do you take on those 4+ hour runs?

 

 

That's off the top of my head!

ANITA~

Use your time Wisely

"Nita, you know for the last few nights I keep having the same dream."
Laying next to Andy with his back to me I ask "Yeah, what is that?"
I was not prepared for his soft answer.
It was almost a whisper, mumbled, it instantly tore my heart wide open.
"I see Ariel, she is sitting on a chair, it is summer, she is combing her hair..."
He gurgles, and stutters.
Even lower, I can barley make out his words..."This is why...
Holding my tears from bursting I swallow hard and reply.
"Andy, don't you think of her.."
"No, this is why." he rolled tighter in a ball, inverted, hidden into himself.
There was nothing left to keep my emotions chained down.
I rolled over, crawled inside myself and wept silently. It hurt. "GOD, life isn't any better. Things haven't moved forward. The deep hole hasn't filled in. God, help me. I miss her so bad. I am so incomplete with out her. I type these words and am overcome. My throat is closing up. My cheeks are flooded.
In the shadow lands I grieve, It hurts everyday. Every moment. Secluded. Alone in my sadness.
Andy lays next to me and even grieves alone, afraid to feel the power of loss. Afraid to feel the pain.
Because it HURTS SO DAMN bad, so bad.


Back to Back long runs. OUCH.
I woke up and my legs were still in working order. "YES!

I was supposed to meet Claudia for our run. It was raining off and on. So much so that I cancelled, afraid that I was not going to get my full 14 miles in.
I couldn't afford to not get this long run in. The whole thing.

I headed to Genesys, the athletic club I am a member of. I should have froze my membership but on a day like this, it was worth every penny lost.
THE PLAN: 5 miles on the track, 5 miles on the TM, then follow it up with 5 back on the track.
It didn't go that way.
I found myself making secret running partners with everyone. But one by one they kept chipping off. I was trying to maintain a 9/m. My body was sore, but I felt good. I thought I would be walking after that 28 miler yesterday.
I was running SOME of my miles in the 8's. I just couldn't figure out how my body was doing it. I thought I would be crawling, crying and complaining. especially over 50 times around the stuffy hot track.

"See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise redeeming the time, because the days are evil." Ephesians 5:15-16

This was my morning scripture. Today, I was reminded how little time we really have. How valuable it is. Even in my running. I had to be wise in the way I arranged my runs knowing that the weather had potential to hijack my miles.
Its about being flexible and having a good attitude to accept change. You have to be an overcomer. Overcoming your thoughts that want to hold you back. Stay focused. Keep your head up and remember you can't get time back. Use it wisely.

Anita

When you Run out of Juice.

The big question before starting my 5 hour run WASN'T if I was going to finish. NO, it was to see if my Garmin would hold charge.

At mile 5, I felt confident that I was going to finish. It might take me all night but what was the hurry?

I was on my way to Rachel's house. She was going to refill my water and run part of my journey with me.
I loved the idea that I had something to break up my run. I would be running 8 miles solo by the time that I arrived at her house.

Due to the heat I was half naked. I was grateful for the slight breeze and cloud cover. It was not enough to prevent me from sweating and smelling.
I was embarrassed by my appearance when I arrived at Rachel's house. Her husband was outside mowing the lawn and her kids were hanging out in the front yard. I was dripping in sweat and barely clothed.
Rachel was ready to roll. I noticed that she had a Camelback on. Camelbacks were our topic of conversation at breakfast after church.
"Rachel, could I try and run a few miles carrying your Camelback?" I wanted to see if it was something that I could run with.

Almost 4 miles into our run I had to pee. I was trying to be conscious about drinking water. If I felt like peeing this was a GOOD thing.
We found an abandoned house, NO I didn't go in, I did however water their landscape. Rachel pointed out that I was starting to chafe front the Camelback. I gave it a valiant effort. Removing the weight from my frame made me feel foot loose and fancy.

We saw a couple runners out there. We both agreed you would have to be pretty serious to be running in the high heat. Coach Ejack from Holly High was running by Addis Rd. As I smiled and said "HI" to him I noticed a vary familiar car coming in my direction. It was MINE!
It was ANDY! He used "FIND my PHONE" on our Iphones and brought me out water. COLD water and ICE!
I noticed a "Brooks" running shoe box sitting on the front seat. "Hmm" I thought.
I dropped Rachel off back home at my mile 18. Her mile 10.

I headed just up the road to the Veterans Cemetery to meet LACEY! Lacey came out on her bike. I laughed so much with her I had to hold myself. She got me so tickled I choked. I think I was just so hot and tired I couldn't swallow. I choked on my water with Rachel too.

Jeesh, my sweat collected the dust from the dirt roads. My skin was all gritty and nasty. I smelled like butt. The sprinklers were on at the cemetery. "Lacey, I think I am going to run through them. And just after I said that, they turned OFF! But another zone turned on and we quickly headed there before it too turned off.

The sun was beating on us. I felt like a vampire. The sun just sucked the life right out of me. I noticed a little wave from a red jeep coming by us, it was my sweet friend Paula. A smile is so pleasant. I looked like vomit and smelled like it too, however, had enough energy to smile and wave back.
BEEP BEEP.. We both turned around at this lunatic honking at us. I saw this hand fist pumping in the air and knew it was my family. "Those Crazy Harless's." I giggled to Lacey. They came my way to bring us more to drink and check on us. I gotta say, Andy got major brownie points, especially after I had JUST told Lacey how Andy hasn't been real supportive. I was CHOKING on my words!
I was so overcome with love.

A few miles later, I received a text from ALEC. "Lacey, Lacey, You gotta see this!"


Those Running shoes...He DID it, SO proud of the Hubby!

It was hard to believe that I was at almost 26 miles. It was my best training run yet for my Ultra training. The support and motivation fueled me. The encouragement filled my tank. Between my running partner, biking partner and messages, it really made running easy. Easier.

With a half a mile left, my Garmin died. Lacey and I walked the last quarter mile back to her van. I saw that familiar red Jeep heading our way. It was PAULA! She found us and brought me cold water and crushed ice. I was so emotional. I grabbed my phone to get a picture of her. She not only looked good she SMELLED good too!
My phone died too.
I was exhausted, I hoped Paula knew how much it meant to me.

Lacey drove me home. I was holding the tears back. There are so many people that loved on me today. I chomped on Paula's ice and with each crunch I was feeling refreshed. It was the thoughtfulness of others.
We have all gotten so busy that we hardly have time for others. I mean, It's just Anita running again, no big deal.
IT WAS A BIG deal. 28 miles, over 5 hours and I don't think I would have finished it the same without the LOVE.
This week it is MY goal to PLAY it forward. To be someones smile, someones encouragement, someones partner.

Like Fritz said on my FB "One step at a time! The tough runs are the best, even though they feel the worst when your doing them."
Its one step at a time.
Prayer. Faith. Believe. Gratitude

28 Miles!

Anita

How I met my partner, RUNNING!

JULY

Total miles: 243.5

Last weeks Miles: 66

Issues: Extra tired, no time for a siesta. Extra sore, Mild plantar fasciitis pain.

Regardless of me running only 1 other ultra, I am such a beginner. I lack the knowledge, the skill and the experience but I am in love with the running. I am going into this believing that my love for running can trump all the rest.

 

That may be a total bonehead move, however, I never claimed to be a rockstar Ultra runner.

Trails are an area that I am lacking once again in my training.

But the reality is I am a chicken. I am forever thinking that there is something going to POP out behind a tree or a bush and get me. Or that there is some pervert out there going to bet this little Mexican. Even my family are always teasing me, "Mom, Be careful, You are such an easy victim..."

They plant these seeds and I play out these ridiculous scenarios of me defending myself against God know what. Of course, I win every time and the bag guy takes a fierce beating from the underdog! I am one bad A$$ in my dreams! Considering I am 5'1 and 101 LBs soaking wet. I have been given the body of a 12 year old boy in desperate need of Botox and a root touch up!

Not so intimidating. As much as I can talk, I would probably be a better negotiator.

 

Slight "rabbit Trail"..no pun intended!

 

Ultra training this week has left me sore. I could barely walk at work Tuesday. I put heels on in hopes it would help stretch my foot out. But it was beyond the foot. It was the booty and the quads. BURN. I think it was Sundays trail run with Ken, Claudia and Jama. As much as I loved the 10 miles in the trails, it seriously abused me. A welcomed abuse! There is something wonderful about being sore. As painful as it is, it is like a trophy.

 

I was still in the hurt locker this morning. I met MARYANN at 7 Lakes. We both agreed to a easy run. It was delightful!  

 

RUNNER SPOTLIGHT

MARY ANN

 

 



 

 

 

How I met Mary Ann: I was shopping at the local grocery store: As I walked in I noticed a Girl Scout cookie stand. If you know me, you know I LOVE GIRL SCOUT COOKIES! Mary ANN was there with her daughter selling cookies. With a very soft voice and big smile she said "Are you Anita, the runner?" The story and conversation went something like that. This all happened about 3 years ago. My Memory is not one of my better assets.

Our children go to the same school and she joined a running club I was leading. The rest is history!

Mary Ann has ran 3 Marathons, Chicago, Detroit and Bayshore.

And multiple half marathons.

She is an adventurer, camping, kayaking, running and biking.

 

 

Once a week or so I will put up a profile of one my running partners. I thought this would be fun!



ANITA~~~





Motivation for my Monday

My foot is killing me. 26.2 miles for a Monday. Not too shabby. But it was a killer. Just getting out of bed was a challenge. I got up late, stiff and whiny.
My body was already compromised from a 10 mile trail run Sunday. In three days I ran 42 miles. That is a lot for this pipsqueak.

MILE 2 BAAHH!

I had to chuckle as I ran solo. I was running a marathon as part of my training for my ultra and I was all alone. No spectators, no partners, nobody even knew I was running 26.2 miles. No cowbells, no signs, no water stations, just alone with myself. That was the scariest part.

Early on in my run my phone chimed. It was Andy. "Thinking about you. Praying."
My heart was all gooey. Just those few words encouraged me and comforted me.

How do you get through over 4 hours of running without calling for a ride, falling apart or going coo coo for Cocoa Puffs?

1. Break your run up, by time, by distance or both, even landmarks
2. Don't make it so serious 
3. Create your own mini moments. I take pictures.

I had plenty to complain about. Don't we all.

• The rain left it humid and muggy
• The back roads were a mudfest
• The black flies were feasting on me.
• My body already felt like it went through a meat grinder
• I was alone, left to the  monsters in my head.

Now, Here is how I got through:

1. Prayers, Asking God to give me strength and perseverance.
2. Seeing God in the beauty that encircled me.
3. Taking the time to snap pictures and enjoy the adventure.
4. Walk breaks and adequate water and nutrition.

What MOTIVATED ME:

1. I ran to my gym, 11 miles away.I filled my water and saw PAULA. Paula unknowingly motivated me with her big smile. She was outside walking the track. She had a hip replacement and was getting it done! "Hey Girl, Getting that 50 miler in?!"

   

   MILE 11, ERIN would LOVE this!

2. At mile 14, it was getting hot. Rather than look at how far I had come, I looked at how far I had to go. This is a bad idea, it is defeating. With the sun baking my sweaty skin I heard my phone ring. I pulled it out and saw it was LACEY! I had to take the call. It was so great to hear her voice. I probably walked half a mile before realizing I could put my ear buds in my phone to talk and run! Lacey was my running partner for about 2 miles. Hearing from her motivated mean extra couple miles beyond our conversation.

   

   Mile 14, Chatting with Lacey and entertaining cows!

3. I hit a wall about mile 19. The whole wall fell on me! I made a post on FB asking for prayer.Within minutes I was getting text messages! I had inspirational messages from a lady I barely knew. And they kept coming. Just amazing.

   

   MILE 18: MICHIGAN Barns, LOVE!

4. But it was Lacey that brought me in those last couple miles. Lacey hasn't been able to run for weeks. In all my pain, fatique, bug bites, aching foot I KNEW Lacey would take all of it to RUN! So I ran those last miles for her.
5. Thankful for those who encouraged me, Tina, Martha,Terri, and Michelle E. AND MAGGIE!

The Corn made a really good secret restroom! Potty break!


QUESTION! Ultra Runners, What is your milage for running an Ultra?




ANITA!!