Stability

At times, life has the ability to  lead us to the edge of chaos. Our schedules get busy, relationships get altered, our health may fail or we may even be struggling with the health of our loved ones.
There are a million scenarios that lead us to instability.

 

I personally find myself unstable in different arenas and in different seasons of life. Sometimes we find ourselves unstable emotionally, physically, financially or even spiritually to name a few.   

I wanted to share our sermon with you today. It really spoke to me,

"A doubleminded man is unstable in his way." James 1:8

" Draw near to God and he will draw near to you, cleanse your hands ye sinners; And purify your hearts ye doubleminded." 4:8

1. What do you do about DOUBLEMINDEDNESS?
Discover where is comes from.

Cleanse Your Hands: Proper Actions
Purify Your Heart: Proper Attitudes

In this world we are tossed to and fro. Todays message reminded me that I will be tossed into elements of instability if I do not keep my focus and heart towards the Lord.
When I draw near to him he will draw near to me and set my feet on solid ground.

Being doubleminded is not being focused on what Gods will for me is. I have allowed my thoughts or actions to not line up with Gods purpose and plan for my life. This is my version of being doubleminded in the season I am right now.

Sometimes I find myself doubleminded when I let others rent space in my head. I have too many thoughts worrying about what others are thinking or saying about me . I forget that God is my judge not man. No matter how righteous man may appear to be they are not our judge. People have the right to define you however they choose. But we have the right to accept it or accept our identity in Christ.

Gods word tells us to not be offended. I find myself instable when I get offended or hurt by the words or actions that have been spoken by others.
I was so grateful for Gods wisdom in the message today.

God speaks to everyone differently.  God spoke to me today reminding me to;
Cleanse my hands, Have proper actions.
Purify my heart, Have a proper attitude.

How do I do this, Draw near to God?
God will draw near to me. He will comfort me and convict me with love. He will give me security in a place I may find myself confused or insecure.
He will give me what I need in HIS time, all the time giving me Peace in the process.
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The Rundown:
My body felt more secure than my mind today. I was so thankful God made my body strong so I could run both physically but also emotionally as well.
I ran without my Garmin on again. I ended up running 4 miles.
Andy ran with me. We are both nursing injuries. We were running down a side street, and saw a old man sitting on the back of his tailgate. He was sitting with his dog when he shouted in a gruff voice, "Hey! You two need to quit running so fast!"
We laughed politely and kept running on. At a safe distance I whispered to Andy, "He thought this was fast? Good grief, if we go any slower the turtles are going to lap us!"

I was at peace with my pace knowing the passion is to RUN right now, that was my Happy Pace.  

Prayers PLEASE. Aunt Lois is struggling with extreme fatigue and discouragement from her 14 hour chemo treatment last week. She could really use some prayers for strength and reassurance.
Anita



Anita

Trying not to get stuck on stupid

When wisdom enters your heart,
And knowledge is pleasant to your soul,
Discretion will preserve you;
Understanding will keep you,

Proverbs 10-11

They say smart people learn from their mistakes BUT brilliant people learn from others.

Well I am not sure what to think of myself now.

 

I am smart enough to know better and dumb enough to get stuck on stupid.

 

ALL I WANT TO DO IS RUN..AND CRY. Because I cannot RUN.

 

I got some really simple advice at physical therapy this week. And it worked.

 

CLINT SAYS like every week, "HOW are you doing Nita?'

My less than enthusiastic response, "UGH, We have to fix this!"

 

Wednesday Clint did some serious ultrasound treatment on my IT Band. I had the marks left over to prove. I could feel the vibrations down in my toes.

"That's it" I told myself, make it hurt so good.

 

Clint gave me some simple and basic advice as he toilet plunged my IT Band, novel concepts really. But only good if they are used like all ideas, wisdom and knowledge.

 

My issue, I want to run too fast. My body is programmed to run at a certain pace but my body isn't capable of healing.

CLINT SAYS:

TAKE OFF YOUR WATCH!

 

Wisdom Enters Your Heart: Wisdom is a treasure. We have opportunities to receive golden nuggets of wisdom if we choose. God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth so we could listen more than we speak!

"And Knowledge is pleasant to your soul": I really enjoy learning. I am no Einstein, However; I love to learn something new. It is empowering, Knowledge is one of the only things NO ONE can ever take from you.

 

"Discretion will preserve you": You can have all the wisdom and knowledge that the library offers but if you do not know how to use it there is no POINT.

 

"Understanding will keep you." Understanding is difficult. We often wonder why and find it easier to question God and his plan rather that accept it and use Wisdom to understand it is his Will.

 

I struggle with understanding my injury. I have learned a lot of wisdom to overcome my injury emotionally. I am grateful for my teachable heart to receive Clints knowledge. I am always working on trying to discern my knowledge from my experience. My experience wants to run too much or too fast.

The knowledge I received from Clint to remove my watch was spot on!

This is the technique I used when I first started running.

BACK to THE BASICS.

 

I took my watch off this morning to meet Danielle. We have not seen one another almost all summer.

She is always so soft spoken with me. I am like a crazy wild animal and she is like a wise owl.

She went with my plan, No watch for me, walk breaks every 5 minutes and easy does it.

 

It was the perfect conversational pace! We had a lot to catch up on.  

 

I did it, with out any IT Band issues! 4 MILES!!

We were slower than molasses but we did it.

 

Clint said this and it really stuck with me, "Do you want to run??? Then take off your watch."

 

I learned a lot today.

I also learned that: It is not about the time it takes you to get where you are going. Sometimes it is about not worrying about the time and enjoying the Journey!

 

Couple Thoughts:

Are Your Teachable? Do you receive instruction well? Take advice well? What is some of the beat advice you have received?

 

Anita

Running for Aunt Lois

I have been struggling with sleep the last few days. I find myself up in the middle of the night looking for some moves on Word With Friends.
It is hard to get motivated at 6am when you fall asleep at 3:30am.

I had 1 goal for today: To dedicate my miles in prayer to Aunt Lois. Andy's Aunt Lois was diagnosed a few weeks ago with Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma.
Cancer SUCKS.
It truly effects everyone. It hurts me to see others hurting so bad. The confusion, the fear, the unknown saturates like a bad stain on a white cotton shirt.
You can't hide it, you can't disguise it, you can't cover it up.

Today was Aunt Lois's first Chemo treatment. It was scheduled to go 8 hours.

I wanted so bad to run for her. I wanted to run and run and run. But I couldn't . I wanted to dedicate my passion to her. I wanted to give her everything I had.
But I couldn't.
What I could do was ask as many runners as I knew to dedicate THIER run for HER.
I posted on a couple running pages asking for support.

Running was not an option for me because of my injury, but BIKING was. Aunt Lois has 8 treatments. I wanted to dedicate 8 miles to her.

The morning was chilly. I wore lime green in honor of lymphoma.

I came up a wet soggy hill about 4 miles into my bike ride. As I looked up, I instantly felt discouraged. I didn't want to hurt. I wanted to ride fast and ride easy. I didn't want to ride hard in the hurt locker.
I thought of Aunt Lois. I pictured her sitting in a big room. I could almost see the fear on her face as she thought "How did this happen? There is no other way..How bad is this going to be?"
How she must have been overwhelmed with anxiety and terror.

Thumbs UP Aunt LO.

I pedaled with everything I had. Dirt spit up under my tires as I dug my heals down.

At mile 5 the tears spewed. I cried for life. The night before Pastor Jim was speaking at our Freedom service. He was talking about doing a funeral on a young 24 year old.
"How many times do you try to teach someone before it is too late?"
"How do you convince someone about life and living when they take it for granted?"
Then with tears in his eyes he looked straight into mine. Tears were resting in my eyes as I thought of my Ariel.
"Then you have some that want to LIVE, that want to LEARN, that want to be different..And God takes them....."
It was almost too much to bear.
As I rode my bike I cried and cried. She called me and her Pa Pa all the time for advice. She was always trying to do the right thing. She truly wanted to live a life to honor GOD. I sit some nights reading her dozens and dozens of text messages.
LIFE is so fragile.
I cried for those I love that do not grasp the intensity of LIFE.

I tried to gain back control.  Aunt Lois knew how fragile life was as she prepared to fight for hers.
I reached the park, approaching 7 miles.
The park was quiet. Heading to the back of the park I debated on the route to go. The route I wanted to go entailed me going down then back up a very large, winding hill.
I did NOT want to do it. I was getting tired and still had to ride about 3 miles home.

"Aunt Lois I am sure does not want to do this either." I heard the voices in my head barking at me.
Again, my thoughts were for strength and perseverance.
I GOT THIS, I motivated myself for HER.
I am not doing this for me. I am going to get up this hill and do it with passion for her. I don't want HER to give up. I don't want her to be discouraged by the obstacles she may encounter. I don't want her to be afraid to go all the way to the TOP.

And with that I finished 8 miles for Aunt Lois and 2 miles for myself. (In case you haven't noticed I am a bit OFF!)

Alec Giving Aunt Lo Smiles and THUMBS UP!

 

I want to say the response from the posts today on Running Against The Odds Facebook page was unbelievable. Thank YOU ALL so much for being such a great encouragement to Aunt LO.
Thank you for the pictures, Stephanie and Kade, Donna and her running partner and Mike running BAREFOOT with his son for Aunt LO.

I sent the biggest bouquet I found today to Aunt LO!

Living Life for oneself is independently lonely. Some of the loneliness people I know never sowed their life into others.

Not trying to be abrasive of mean, however; the truth is:
Life is fragile.
I have an innumerable amount of friends. I am so blessed with random cards, gifts, phone calls, text messages that I always feel loved.
I am bound with people who LOVE me and except me for my crazy self.
I am a little nuts, a little goofy, a lot forgetful, I have lots of character defects BUT I have so many that accept that from me.
I try to be teachable. I understand how to use the words "I am sorry"
I can lay my head down on my pillow after 40 years as honestly say "I have tried to love those who do not love me."
I finally after 40 years HAVE PEACE.
I love sharing myself with those who love and appreciate me.
I love to LOVE people.
There are so many that want to receive love and there are those who do not. I am at peace with Letting GO.
Invest your life into others and you will always see your return.

A few ramblings of my the thoughts I had during my bike ride.

Please Continue to LIFT Lois up. She will be having treatment once a month. I will be asking you for continued support and encouragement.

GAL 6:2 "Bear ye one another's burdens and so fulfill the law of CHRIST."

Anita

Back to the Basics

Looking back over my running career I have had my share of injuries. The current injury seems so defeating to me. IT band is a jumbled nagging injury.
"Sure you can run on it, if it hurts stop."
You can't tell me that. I will run on the stupid thing. I will run until I can no longer run.
Yesterday, I decided to run 2 easy miles. And even in the hot temperatures they were so easy I didn't get much of a sweat going.
I saw Ken H. out there rocking out a tempo run. As he passed me, he shouted out his speedy digits. I kept running hoping he wouldn't see me turning green with envy. I smiled as I passed him and yelled something like "Nice JOB BUTTHEAD!" Then I moved along at my turtle pace heading back to home.

That run felt great.
Todays 3 miler, not so good.
Back and forth I go. I think I am able to get back in the saddle again only to follow up my good run with a crappy one.

I feel so torn. Back and forth.

It is like life. One day you are on top of the world. You have life in the palm of your hands. Then BAM! You get this sucker punch that knocks the wind right out of you. You are on the sidelines confused and discouraged.
How do we go from everything being Jim Dandy and Peachy keen to beaten up and left for dead?

I need to go Back to the Basics. Look over everything and to see what I am missing.

In RUNNING the Basics go like this:

1. Interval Training: start with the walk run method, gradually running more than you are walking.
2. Stretch and ROLL: warm up well. (Active stretching)  you can be  stretching and rolling or you can briskly walk before you begin running.
3. Mix it UP!: Vary your running surfaces.
4. Proper Running Form: Run with a strong core.
5. Inspire to Perspire: Find what inspires you, a friend, a log, power music..
6. Easy does it: Try not to over do it. Use the 10% rule.

In Life the Basics for ME go Like This:

1. Pray. Seek God in all I do, Give thanks, seek forgiveness, wisdom and direction. Ask him to do great and mighty things:  Jeremiah 33:3 "Call unto me and seek me and I will show you great and mighty things which thou knowest not"
2. Remove the things holding me down: "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us." - Hebrews 12:1
3. Finding JOY in my circumstances: James 1:2-4 "Count it pure joy my brethren whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

I am like a child in so many ways. I want what I want, right now, even better yesterday. I have to go back to the basics to study my training both in running and also in my walk with Christ. Christ is bigger than All things.
Sometimes in our Pain we forget our true Purpose. 


Side Note: We will have a special blog on Matt A's experience out west. He has a inspiring story of being on a team to support a ultra running to his victory.
Should be sometime later this week.

Special Prayer Requests:
Aunt LO. Andys Aunt Lois from Chicago has been diagnosed with lymphoma. She starts her chemo-treatment this week. Please lift her in prayer for Strength, Courage and Healing.
A dear friend of mine just lost her father unexpectedly. Please Pray for Rachel and her family in their heartbreak and loss.



"God Made you as You Are In Order To Use You As He Planned."
ANITA
 

Swinging from Trees

We thought it would be fun to surprise the boys with a afternoon hanging from trees. Raising kids is not for the weak. We were barely out of church when the nit picking had already begun. All of our intentions to have a great afternoon was not starting out the way we planned.

We headed to Birch Run to take the kids for breakfast at Tonys. From there, to Frankenmuth to go to Adventure Park for an afternoon of zip-lining.

Tonys restaurant was a bust, the line was half way out the door. Andy was looking bummed out. We went a couple lights up the road to eat at my least favorite place, Big Boy.

The kids found a few more reasons to make me question my parenting. But just when I was ready to go home defeated the check came. We continued to our destination in hopes the kids would be surprised, grateful and we would come together like the Beaver Cleavers.

When we pulled in the kids were smiling enough that they forgot they were enemies just a few minutes prior.

We all forgot the last 2 hours of back talking, arguing, bad breakfast and pouting.

Everyone had the same idea to swing from trees on this perfect 80 degree day. There was about an hour wait.
I needed the wait to get my courage up to tackle the heights. Not to mention the knowledge of the harness, all the clipping in, out and tazzling, or was it tizzling..

I looked at young kids and older people with more confidence. "Hmm, if they can do it I can do it!"

TRUSTING YOUR MECHANICS:
One of the first things I had to get used to was TRUSTING my mechanics. The ropes, the harness and the clips. If done right I was safe. I couldn't rely on my physical strength to get me to the other side of a 40 foot moving obstacle.
I needed to have faith in the equipment that I was attached to. This was very hard for me. I am the person that spends half their life looking for my keys and they are wanting me to do all that clipping? What if I forget something and go zipping between trees ending up toppling through the branches like a handicapped monkey?
Trust; Everything at the park was top notch. The park is just over a year old, the equipment, the cables and the harnesses was in great condition.

HARNESSING YOUR FEAR: We did 2 of the 5 obstacle courses. As a family we all did the green obstacle course. We stayed together as a family. We all coached each other, supported, and helped each other through the 40 minutes intermediate course.

As a group we felt more secure. Power in numbers.
However, we separated for our next obstacle course. Andy and Austin headed off the Black Diamond.
Alec and I looked at them like they were NUTS. Men with muscles were struggling over 40  feet in the air pitting out and wiping sweat off their face with each challenging step. Forget about the fact that their course was higher than ours, it was also more challenging hands done.
Alec wanted to do the green course again. I convinced him to harness his fear and dare to conquer the Blue Course.
The second obstacle really made me question my courage. I wanting to pee my pants. The obstacle had you about 30 feet in the air. You had to walk on a rope in between 2 ropes at shoulder length. You had to grip the rope in front of you and balance yourself on the little rope about 40 feet down to the end.
I was so scared. I knew I was secured in. Falling would be  horrible even with the harness. Most of my fear came about half way down. "How is Alec going to do this?" I was so concerned for him. "Please God, let Alec have the courage to make it across." I prayed.
Alec, was as white as a sheet as he slowly approached me one step at time shimming himself with precision.
"Alec, I am so proud of you." I wanted to cry as a mother seeing him overcome his fear.

LET GO..JUST GO GO:
The course was so much fun. There is something empowering about conquering you fear and chewing on it!
I loved learning to trust not just myself but also trust the construction and design of the course.
The feeling of just releasing your grip on the tree and flying through the air towards the next tree was exhilarating.

NO ONE told me about the end. You have to free fall off a 40 foot tree, it might as well as been a NYC skyscraper. Andy,Alec and Austin walked me through the harnessing part. I looked down and freaked out "I am supposed to just jump off this ledge?" I quickly turned around to look for stairs. When I couldn't find any stairs I looked for another exit. "Mom, just turn around and drop." Austin coaxed me. It looked like suicide. No way. I looked for a worker. "HEY, is it true? I just jump?" I yelled at the guy in orange.
Laughing at me he confirmed my fear. My family was right. "Just walk off the ledge and LET GO MOM!" They all were screaming now.
People were looking at me and laughing. I was shaking. My hands were sweating.
"Just LET GO???"
"YES!!"
Closing my eyes I walked to the edge and jumped. Down I went as easy as pie!
My legs were shaking so bad I just crumbled to the ground thanking God!
The boys were all laughing.
"I told you mom was going to have a hard time with that!" Andy chuckled.

Our afternoon started out a bit dysfunctional. We struggled with getting along with one another. The first challenge of the day started with coming together. We needed to forgive one another, build a bridge and get over it in order to enjoy a great family day.
We had a great day as a family. We bonded, we encouraged, we supported and we finished the day with love. And Love Conquers All.

Special Thanks to Thomas. He was a great help to us at the park. He shared the other location in Bloomfield Hills and invited us to try their 10 course park. The staff at the park was very helpful. Their laughter created a fun atmosphere.

SIDE NOTE..I am going to have a Guest next WEEK. Watch for Matt A's story next week!

Anita

Coaching Power Words

"Anita, you would be better off if I was dead."
"People don't know the REAL you, like I do."
"You don't have to Love me but you Had better Damn well Respect ME!"
"You Don't LOVE ME, You only LOVE YOURSELF."
"I am just going to kill myself, all you want is my money."

Proverbs 18:21
"The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit."

These words haunt me over 20 years later. I can recall more words that my mother spoke into me with hurt than love.
There is no doubt that my mother loved me. I know this. Often hurting words come from a wounded heart. Matthew 12:34; Luke 6:45"…out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks."

WORDS HURT. They are like daggers cutting straight to the flesh. They are like venom that poisons your heart and mind.
They say it takes 7 good things to trump 1 bad thing said to you.

I heard words at such a young age that would handicap me for life.

You don't just "GET OVER IT."
They are too painful to forget and  painful to remember.
The words leave scars that you try to cover up all your life.
They leave you with thoughts of

• Being unloved
• Being unworthy
• Being discarded
• Being disgraced

I could go on and on. I sat there amongst several adults this past Tuesday. This is Addiction Night, many were that had been broken from hurtful words. Words that they said or words that were said to them. Every Tuesday night I facilitate a group that have loved ones struggling with drugs, alcohol or other co-dependency issues.

The tears of empathy stream down my face as the gentleman describes the toxic words his 75 year old mother still spews at him.

I don't talk about it much. But I think about them often.

As runners we learn the Power Of Words. We learn that just a few words of negativity can sabotage a run before we get out the door. Running starts in our heads way before we lace up our shoes. Some of us never even get to lace up our shoes because the words were entertained too much.

Running Power Words:

1. Persevere
2. Believe
3. Strength
4. Faith
5. Endure
6. Victory
7. Guts/Grit
8. Persistence
9. Dedication
10. Persistence

Most runners I know are the most encouraging, edifying and motivational people I know. We learn the Power of Words. We speak to ourselves all day long. We coach ourselves with words. Words to get us out the door. Words to get us moving and keep us moving. Words to conquer defeat, words to destroy discouragement and words to lead us to victory.

I laced up my Hoka's and headed out the door to try and do 3 easy miles. Mile 2 was my best mile. I felt whole. As I approached my 3 I had a minor twinge. I was grateful that I was only a couple houses from home. No running for me for a couple days. I will see how I feel come Sunday. Thank You for the continued prayers. I feel so needy asking for them. I am very grateful for those who have been praying for me.

1 Thessalonians 5:11
“So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.”

My Challenge to you is to use those same words that as runners you are coaching yourself with, to coach someone else.
Speak the very words of life, love and encouragement into a loved one.


"Words have power. They work. That's why poetry can affect people. That's why music and lyrics and songs affect people, and that's why chants and prayers and affirmations and all those various things affect the frame of mind." Sammy Hagar

  Do you have words that have haunted you? Are you a good encourager, coaching  into others?

Afraid to RUN

For years now I have done nothing but look forward to running. I plan the run, the route, the clothing, I check the weather and find myself itching to lace up my shoes.
It makes my day before I even get out of bed.

Having a injury where you can not run or are uncomfortable to run disturbs almost every fiber of your being.
I am off balance in every way.
I am way more emotional.
I think far to much, overthinking things that I would otherwise "Let Go and Let God".
I lost my routine.
I lost part of my identity.
I have lost part of my joy.
I have lost my running companions.

I thought the best way to heal my injury would be to take a 2 week hiatus from running.

Not running does not mean sitting on the couch with a bag of Chicago style pop corn..
I run so I can sit on the couch and eat that.

It means we find a new routine:

• I have done more biking in the last week than I have done in the last 5 years.
• I have continued to go to the gym to do alternative cardio and exercises.  
• Icing for NO LESS than 15 minutes with every work out.
• Doubling up on my Juice Plus and Juice Plus complete for healing.
• Healthier options for bed time munchies.
• Doubled up on my prayers

I have really tried to have all my bases covered.

Today, I met with Clint V for physical therapy.

"I took 2 weeks off from running..."
Clint just stares at you before he speaks. This makes me nervous for what he is going to say.
"Well, I would run and see how it feels." He casually says.
I thought I would get personal with my response, " So would YOU run?'
Without hesitation he replied "Yes, I would run and if it hurts stop."

Leaving the office I suddenly got scared. In my car ride back home my hands were sweaty on the steering wheel.

• What if the pain shows up?
• What if I can't run?

Each of those thoughts had a dozens sideways thoughts attached to it. My head was spinning. I was scared to death to see how my body responded to running.

I headed to the gym. The plan was to try and do 3 miles. I would run on the track. I wanted the feeling of running free. Not confined to the treadmill. I wanted to feel the air brush pass my skin. my hair to flow behind me. I wanted to see my body propel forward.
"Please God...." I prayed.

I was having cold feet.

I took off like a bat out of hell.
It didn't take 10 feet before I felt my knee aching.
It wasn't my IT band though. I kept running. The pain was more on my knee cap.
1 mile down. My chest was heavy. There is nothing like RUNNING. The hair on my arms stood up as my body moved forward. Slowly the pain in my knee was gone. I waited for my It band to flare up. Waiting waiting waiting..
My lungs were burning.
My left foot was even beginning to nag me.
But I kept going. It was so invigorating. I wanted to go faster. I wanted to go harder.
1, 2 3 miles... I DID IT. NO, IT Band pain.

I am still a little skeptical. Is it too good to be true?
As for the knee pain. I believe it is a result from countless lunges and squats over the last 2 weeks.

I am not sure. But I am grateful.
Thursdays are usually run days for me. I am going to try again tomorrow. I will go a lot slower. I may even add some walk breaks in there to be smart.


I don't want to get stuck on stupid. Running fast, running long and running hills are the 3 worst things you can to do when recovering from an IT band injury.
I am my worst enemy. Injury will humble you. But staying humble takes work.

Anita