Oddity.

"What you are thinking about, you are becoming."

Mahammad Ali

Not every day is a good day. And not every RUN is a good RUN.
And what exactly is "GOOD"?
Is that where the stars align up just perfect? A land where everything is peachy keen and Jim Dandy?
My bad might be your greatest day and my greatest day could sound like a complete nightmare to you!

Sometimes we can pin point the things that are "Off" and sometimes we have no idea why things are "ODD".

This week I have ran 5 days straight. This is "ODD" for me.

Sundays Run-I ran with Lacey. We ran FULL sun, roads and as flat as we could. I got 20 miles in.
Other than being completely WIPED out the rest of the day I felt GOOD. It was GOOD.
Mondays Run-I was beat up and feeling the residual damage from Sundays run. I managed 9 miles. It was good.
Tuesday Run- I should have made it a REST DAY. But I felt "ODD". It was the Fourth of July. I just never felt right all day. I decided to run that afternoon before we went out for fireworks. Feeling nostalgic, I  thought it would be fun to do 4 miles. My mind was racing. I just wanted to run the voices out. I ran into my street and didn't even remember running over the 4 hills to get home. It was a off day. Odd.
Wednedays Run-I ran with Jeff. I met at his house. Together we ran roads, a 5 mile loop. Jeff did 1 loop with me. After the first loop I decided to try and run each one a little bit faster.
Loop one: 48 min

Loops two: 46 min

Loops three: 44 min.

15 miles total time: 2h:18min

It was good.

Thursdays Run, today! Todays run is a great reminder why I DON'T run 5 days in a row. I was beat UP. Tired, slow and sore. TO be very honest...it was actually my 6th day in a row running. I did speedwork on Saturday morning. 17 miles at Holly Rec. with Claudia, Rachel, and Kris. It was tough. It was good, but I was off. Odd.

Bad Nita. Bad.

It was Tuesdays fault. I was so deranged. Emotionally sabotaged. I knew I shouldn't have ran. But I couldn't control anything in my head.
I enjoy running with Jeff. He is older and wiser. He shared these thoughts on Tuesday with me.

"Nita, you can tell me if I am wrong but it seems like a lot of women run because it is the only thing they can control.... Their families, their children, their marriages aren't as easy to control..." Jeff shares his deep thoughts on our run.

Yes, yes. I couldn't control anything on Tuesday. I laughed, I smiled, I loved but I couldn't control what other people did with it or thought of it. The things I wanted I couldn't get. I kept trying and still felt like I left empty handed.

The only thing I could control was my running. I could run away from everything and everyone and for that little bit of time I was in control.

And as ODD as I felt, as bad as I knew I shouldn't run...I knew it was the only thing I could do.

Doing what I love.

"Do what you love, Go where you're admired, not where you're tolerated. Be what you want to be not what others want you to be."

Anita.