Get out of your head.

"The difference between possible and impossible lies in a person's determination." 

Tommy Lasorda

Saturday night I worked on my Kindness Rocks. I am making them for my Chemo/Radiation Clinic. 

You know why people do not put their goals, their dreams, their crazy ideas out there?

Because then you are accountable.
Because people are lovers and there are haters.
Because some want you to succeed and some do not.
Because we do not seek God, thinking we have to do it all on our own.

Ultimately, it all falls in FEAR.

(False Evidence Appearing Real) 

To pull off qualifying for Boston:
Every run has to be intentional. Every run has a purpose. Every run scares me and makes me pee my pants a little.

Claudia called me this afternoon. Its out there. Anita is going to try to qualify for Boston.
She was very encouraging. I am grateful for friendships. "Get out of your head...…" Claudia recited in love.

I am scared shi*#$$.

Most of us don't set goals that scare us. Or goals that we might actually fail at.
We get failing and being a being failure confused. Just because you fail does NOT mean you are a failure.

We have gotten fragile. Full of excuses and short cuts.

YOU SHOULD be making goals that scare you. And be so determined to achieve them.

Wednesday Lacey and I had a last minute run. We both were tight on time and the weather was colder then a brass toilet in January.
She gave me a plan, it was going to hurt.
3 miles into the plan she changed it. I chased after her in the brutal cold faster then planned and started doubting my abilities.
I had three miles to go and she just dropped a gear.
She shouted the goal, I clenched my fists and quit whining excuses.

Thursdays Group run with Complete runner was no different. We were lighting up Flint with headlamps and Noxgear. 5 miles started out with laughs and friendly conversations about old school sitcoms. By mile 3, I couldn't carry on a conversation about Whiley The Coyote anymore than I could remember where "Alf" was from.

Sunday Runday is usually a LSD run. Andy and I went out to Indian Springs in hopes we would have a path cleared without traffic.
While they had a gal at the booth checking park passes, they didn't have anyone that dropped salt on the 8 mile path.

We did 45 second walk breaks every 6 minutes. This helped me get a little faster turnover.
THIS RUN SUCKED. We ran on a sheet of ice. After the first 7 miles, Andy decided we should pick up the pace a smidge to get a sub 10min/mi.
There was a day, not that long ago that I could do this no problem. "Ok, lead me, I will follow you..." I responded knowing this was what I needed but scared.
I pumped those pipsqueak arms and shut the voices down.
The last mile has a God forsaken hill. We skipped our walk break. DETERMINED to get our negative split I took the lead. Half way up the hill Andy was cursing me and our 9:20min/mi pace.
"SHUT up, don't take this from me, just run..." I heaved. (Said in LOVE of course!)
DETERMINED.

"Without ambition one starts nothing. Without work one finishes nothing." 

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Reign those thoughts in. Get out of your head.
Weekly Miles: 31 miles.

IN OTHER NEWS:

RADIATION: I made it through the first week! 4 more to go and so far no physical signs of the most expensive tanning booth ever!

I came home from work sneezing like a banshee. sneezing has always been the first indication that I am getting sick. I HAVE NOT GOTTEN SICK THROUGH THIS ENTIRE CANCER JOURNEY, OVER 9 MONTHS! Glory to God.
I came home and started drinking my tea and doubling up on my JUICE PLUS that was generously given to me from Joann U.

My throat was itching in the middle of the night, I got up, gargled, prayed and felt like a million bucks this morning!
Determined
Get out of your Head. 

Special Thanks to Mom, Debbie, Andy and Holly for going with me to Radiation, or meeting me for lunch after!
And Thank you for the special messages everyday...Lacey.
Thank you everyone for not getting burnt out on me.
#itsjustanothermarathon.

Anita