"Therefore the name of that place was called Kibroth-hattaavah, because there they buried the people who had the craving." Numbers 11:34
Yesterday I thought of a sermon that I had heard just the night before. It was on a place "Kibroth-hattaavah" It means the Grave of our Craving.
As I wanted to curl up and die around the track I also wanted so badly to run faster. I wanted to at least feel like I was running fast. I thought to my self is this the Grave of my Craving? I crave to be better, I work hard to be faster, was I being greedy? After all, in all this pain I silently thought it was a good time to die. I felt like death as I struggled to pick my legs up around the track. I sounded like death as my breathing was labored and uncontrolled. I probably even looked like death by the faces I was getting as I pleaded with my body to go faster. As I finished my 800m repeats my shoulders dropped and I would gasp for air. I wanted to just fall on my face in defeat. Again I asked myself "if this the Grave of my Craving?" I had to just chuckle.
I do I Crave it. The Run. As I awake I look forward to my RUN. I was so excited today to hear from Danielle. I had not run with Danielle since we went into hibernation 4 weeks ago. With the sun shining my mouth watered in anticipation to be able to run outside.
Like an addict I methodically got dressed. I knew everything I needed to wear. I could feel the sun on my skin even though I was not outside. I could see myself running up that hill at Indian Springs and looking towards the big oak tree. I was craving the run.
Danielle and I ran the 8 mile loop. We felt great up until that last mile where the wind began to blow just as you are running uphill. Double Wammy. My legs felt like sludge with all the layers attached to me. The fun was drying up. The Grave of my Craving. I chuckled to myself. The Grave of my Craving really doesn't apply to me or my running, however; it really does make you chuckle and think.
Oh how it was so nice to finally share a run outdoors wih you again!! you constantly amaze me with not only your desire to be faster and stronger but your dedication to achieving it! i think it is great to have goals but also ok to review and revise when necessary! Happy Valentine's day!!
ReplyDeleteAwesome that you guys were able to get outside and run!! It sounds like an amazing run! It was 89 when I ran yesterday, it was so hot! I am already dreading summer coming when running outside will be impossible. Carri~A Running bee
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