Lil bit more.

I saw this lil lovergirl on my bike ride this week.  

I ran 7 miles yesterday, running was not a responsible option for today. It was exciting for me yesterday but I needed to calm myself down. 

So  I gutted out an hour of biking today. 

Just trying to get a lil bit more.

With my headphones in I tried to drown out my wincing, whining and whimpering. I looked down at my speed and tried to get my pipsqueak legs to turn the peddles over faster. As I looked at my legs I tried not to get discouraged at the atrophy in my muscles. My nephew, Glenn, said that maintaining 14mph on a mountain bike was pretty good. It didn't feel pretty good and I didn't think I was maintaining that!

The cars flew by me kicking up dust and dirt adding to my misery. 

Melissa and I met to run with GFAC, Ryan ran a few a couple miles with us. It felt so good to get to run. 

I am still sleeping in my splint. I am not free from the annoyances PF brings but I am getting more grace. 

I am getting more miles. A lil bit more. 

I had to give myself a little emotional time out. I am good at giving others grace but I am not gentle with myself. 

This week, I took myself back to last year. While the rest of the world moves forward,  I find myself looking back gathering a year of cancer. 

I looked back at my yesterdays. 

God carried me in my ugliest, weakest and emptiest days. 

I had used up all my humanly resources but Gods resources never expired or ran out. 

Ashamed of my tantrums over the last several weeks I quietly asked God for just a lil bit more. 

Just a lil bit. Enough to keep my humble. Enough to encourage me. Enough to Glorify Him. 

Just a lil bit more Strength.

Just a lil bit more Patience. 

Just a lil bit more Courage. 

Just a lil bit more Mercy. 

Just a lil bit more Endurance. 

Just a lil bit more Healing. 

No, I didn't ask for a lil bit more running, or a lil bit more biking. That is just a bi-product.  I need more of the invisible. 

Col 1:11 " Strengthened with all power according to His Glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience." 

I am going to try to get 11 miles in tomorrow of trails. 

Just a lil bit more. 

Anita

A BIG SHOUT OUT TO ALICE WHO HAS BEEN BATTLING BREAST CANCER, SHE GOT HER SAMPLES BACK FROM HER BREAST SURGERY AND THEY CAME BACK NO CARCINOMA!!

The things I have to stop to take a photo of riding my bike. I laughed at this one.