Stupid Honest. RRR T-5 days

“I lift up my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of Heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:1-2

Run Rabbit Run 50 is just days away. My nerves are on tilt even knowing I have everything covered. I have trained my little heart out for the last 8 months. 

But I am still a wreck. I am scared. And I am stupid honest. I have had 3 melt downs in 10 days. That ugly place where you lose your breath, where your insides are cramping, and I feel like I am going to puke. At one point I couldn't find some flight info and at another point I couldn't find my registration. Both times I thought the room was closing in on me, massive panic and tears were about to erupt. I was in full on emotional breakdown. 
BREATHE. CHILL OUT. 
I asked Andy last week to be HONEST with me and share my STRENGTHS and WEAKNESSES going into the race. I needed to know.

STRENGTHS:  Experience, mental fortitude, solid training....
WEAKNESSES: The Elevation, the Altitude

I thought about Andys honesty and before giving more space to fear my heart actually settled. I have one strength Andy forgot to mention. 
One strength that covers all. 
I have one strength that has power to not only run the mountains but MOVE the MOUNTAINS!!

2 Corinthians 12:9 He said, "My Grace is all you need. My power works best in WEAKNESS.: So now I am glad to boast about my weakness, s that the power of Christ can work through me. 

I know my weaknesses. I know my strengths; I have gotten very familiar with them. But if the Lord leads me into weakness, it teaches me to depend on Him. I can see those mountains ahead of me. The mountains that represent what I have already conquered. One step at a time. One mile at a time. I can see the mountain, but I want to experience the invisible. Faith to make it over them when my strength is gone. Faith to run when I am weak, when I am tired when I am at my weakest. 

I am stepping out in fear and in faith. That fear is what makes me tremble in self. But that FAITH is what conquers mountains! SO I am taking that leap of faith in full reliance on the one who created the mountains to carry me over them in victory! 

BIG SHOUT OUT to JAZZ and JOEL. Andy and I went camping over the weekend. We went to support our friends trying to qualify for Boston. Congrats to Jazz for qualifying and Joel for a PR of over 20 minutes!! Also Kathy M and Christina for also qualifying! Watching the grit of these athletes truly inspired me!!

OUR Crew: Will, Donny, Joel, Jazz, Erica, me and Andy!

In Peace not Pieces, 
Anita